Something Worth Fighting For

Today’s meditation was skipped because I was a lazy fuck and totally overslept today.  In fact when the girls got up I moved from the couch to the bed and went back to sleep.

Forest Creatures Tarot v2 and Flower Fortune CardsToday’s draw is the Five of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of discontent and casting focus upon one’s disappointments and bad experiences instead of upon the good in life and what’s going right.

Like most Five of Cups, the figure in this card looks completely unimpressed with the boon around them.  Even with it right in front of her, the bounty displeases.  She is focused elsewhere and rejects that which is to her good fortune out of displeasure she feels towards something else.

Combined with the Flower Fortune card for today, which says that “If you have something worth fighting for, then fight for it”, the message that I see in today’s cards is about not looking a gift horse in the mouth.  Maybe the grass looks greener elsewhere, but don’t lose your own lawn by being so distracted by the one on the other side of the fence that you don’t tend (and enjoy) what you already have.  It’s okay to work for something more or something better… but don’t forsake what’s good in the now in order to do it.

DECK USED:  FOREST CREATURES TAROT v2 AND FLOWER FORTUNE CARDS

LionHart’s Reap & Sow Tarot Challenge Prompt
Questions for May 16th through 18th

Darlings TarotAre my current choices in alignment with my inner voice?
Four of Pentacles and Knight of Pentacles

Yes, with a big dose of stability added in due to my need for that, and a big dose of taking it slow added in for self care.  You may be moving at a slower pace than you would like, but the choices you make are aligned with the guidance your inner voice is providing.

Where am I asked to listen {more} to my inner voice?
Eight of Pentacles and King of Wands

When it comes to my business. Not just in the creation and manifestation aspect, but also in the direction that I want to take the business in and how I go about getting there. Keep in mind that it’s not enough to just listen, there must also be action in order for what is said to be applied.

What can listening {more} to my inner voice establish {for me}?
Ace of Cups and King of Swords

It will lead to a more comfortable and stable strategy of introducing my emotions into the process. This is something that I have been trying to do for a while now, as somewhere along the way I feel like all the cycles of burnout and recovery caused me to lose track of my joy in the process.  A strategy that preserves stability and self care while also allowing me to begin finding joy in the process of my work again is what is being offered here… and sounds amazing.

DECK USED:  DARINGS TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicsMay2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic
: Do Spread #2
Question: Why am I so driven to work even when I know that I need to rest?

Forest Creatures Tarot v2Reading Summary: Fear (Nine of Swords) of losing my sense of security and stability (Four of Coins), as well as fear (Nine of Swords) of losing the feelings of success that satiate me on an emotional level (Nine of Cups).

Take Away: Fear.  The answer here is that the reason I work so hard even when I need to rest is fear.  Fear of losing my stability.  Fear of losing my sense of security.  Fear of losing my contentment and the happiness I’ve found in the now.  Fear of losing my sense of “comfortable”.

These fears drive me on even when it’s not healthy for me to push myself so hard.

DECK USED:  FOREST CREATURES TAROT v2

Daily Self Kindness

I called an end to play with Gideon tonight when I started feeling tender.  I didn’t want to and was really worried about disappointing by doing so but… it got to the point I was struggling to concentrate and stay in character.

One thought on “Something Worth Fighting For

  1. Oops I missed this one somehow. And you, my love? Are NEVER lazy. Sleep is important, it’s necessary and you need to not beat yourself up when your body finally demands it’s due.

    It is okay to end our play when you are feeling tender or shaken up, baby. I really don’t mind and I would MUCH rather have you tell me and us pause and spend some time making it better than you leaving it and ending up suffering for it in the end.

    It’s always okay to tell me what you’re feeling and it’s always okay to stop when you need to. Always.

    I also agree with what drives you to work so hard even when you so desperately need to rest. That fear of losing your stability is with you every day and another of those shadows you’re going to have to work on one of these days.

    Oh and just a reminder, when the time is right, I’d like to work on our past life stuff, but I want you to be in a good place before we begin, so I can wait as long as we need. I just wanted to put it here so that you know it’s not been forgotten.

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