Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and was another of the guided meditations from the Calm app combined with an interval timer for stretches. I don’t really do meditations on order days, but I really felt the need today so I went ahead and did it anyway.
Today’s meditation was about making sure that you are taking care of yourself and doing the things needed to keep yourself healthy and happy, because if you want to help others you have to help yourself first. If there’s no energy or if you’re burnt out, you’re not operating at your best… and that means you’re not giving your best either.
Today’s draw is the Tower card, which is traditionally a representation of tearing down established structures and patterns in order to make room for something new to be built in its place. This type of change comes on suddenly, is chaotic, and can often be frightening or painful.
The Iboga plant (Tabernanthe iboga) is a psychoactive plant that is highly toxic and commonly used in certain areas of the world to bring about visions and near death experiences. It is my understanding that through the process of these NDEs it is believed that you tear down you shed your past, your sicknesses, or your life that is not working for you, and return with fresh and fertile soil to build from moving forward.
Combined with the Flower Fortune Card, which states “Never fear what you do not know”, what I see here is a message about that process of tearing down to re-build. Sometimes we invest a lot… a lot… in making something work in our lives. And it can feel horrible when that thing just isn’t working, or maybe it did work for a long time, but isn’t anymore. When those things are dismantled or torn out of our lives, the change we struggle with isn’t about losing those things usually. It’s about the unknown that lies ahead.
The message in today’s cards is a reminder. Don’t allow fear to keep you from tearing down what isn’t working and starting fresh. Starting again puts all the control in your hands, and fertile soil in your life with which to grow something new and beautiful from.
DECK USED: THE ALCHEMIST’S GARDEN TAROT AND FLOWER FORTUNE CARDS
The Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Prompt
Topic for May 23rd thru 25th:
You are fooling yourself if you think that you are looking at rest in a healthy manner. You’re not getting enough and you know it. Open your eyes and look closer.
Body – Subconscious
The Tower and The High Priestess
That inner critic needs to go. It’s holding you back and even your intuition is being affected.
Spirit – Deepest Desire
Ten of Cups
Happy home, success, more positivity. Stop looking so hard at the earthy side of things and pay more attention to the watery elements in your life. Emotions are more important.
Spirit – Deepest Issue
Nine of Swords
Anxieties and worries clouding your judgment. Fears holding you back. The hesitation you’re dealing with isn’t about time or preparedness. It’s about fear. Deal with the fear and the procrastination you’ve been feeling in so many areas of your life lately will lift as a result.
DECK USED: TAROT RENARD
#DiscordTarotolicsMay2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: What are you ignoring that needs to be dealt with?
Reading Summary: Closed minded thinking from an external source (Hanged Man on its side) is holding you back (The Chariot in the left position) and stealing your potential and progress (Eight of Wands in the right position).
Take Away: This is the second time in a few days that the topic of a closed minded influence in my life has been brought up. I can’t think of anyone in my life at this time that could be exerting this influence, but it’s clear from these cards that they (or a situation causing this mindset) is on the way, and that I need to shut it down quickly when it arrives.
This could be about “all or nothing” thinking in the moment.
DECK USED: THE ALCHEMIST’S GARDEN TAROT
I’m soaking in the bath before bed tonight.