Card to represent my depression.
Four of Hearts (Watermelon Bliss) – For a few days in the past week, I found myself at the very bottom of the pit and struggling to stay afloat in the mire that covers the bottom. But now, I am no longer in that place. I am still in the pit, and the light is still so very far away, but it is more of a dejected feeling of disinterest than abject misery of soul rotting decay. Dejection with just a sliver of hope is the current status of my depression.
Something I need to learn about my depression.
Ace of Clubs (Paper Sizes) – The roots of inspiration have no place to dig within the mire of my depression, the soil too loose and heavy like trying to plant seeds within clay or sand. There is no nutrients to feed those roots, and stability in which to be supported and grow strong. Inspiration cannot be forced… instead you just wait until you can see the light once more in order to plant those seeds in fertile soil.
An action I can take to help my depression.
Three of Clubs (Sweet Starfruit) – Small steps. Just like taking little nibbles out of a cookie will eventually turn into having ate the entire thing, each small step forward in the darkness will take you a little closer to the light, even when at times you cannot see the light you are moving toward. Do not allow yourself to stand still and stagnate. Every small step of self care and healthy choices help you in getting a little closer to the freedom you seek.
How I can show myself more compassion.
Seven of Spades (Waterlily Lake) – Watch out for sneaky inner dialogue slipping in to screw with you when you’re not expecting. Don’t buy into those lying whispers and negative, snarky judgements that slither through your mind and try to pollute your thinking. You know it’s the depression speaking and not a reflection of reality.
How I can find joy in my life right now.
Four of Spades (Peaceful Droplets) atop Five of Spades (Compassionate Aura) – Set down your anger and your need to strike out, to share your pain in unhealthy ways. That, too, is your depression trying to control and influence you. Instead, seek healthy ways to unload your burden and ease your mind so that you can rest more easily without a guilty conscience.
A reason to stay strong.
Ten of Diamonds (The Unknown) – If you give in to the whispers that swirl within you during your depression, you can end up deconstructing every single bit of stability and security you have built up over time for yourself and those that depend upon you. Instead, stay focused on all that you have accomplished and remember that you are stronger than this… and will make it through to the other side with the help of those you so often help every single day.