Today’s meditation was just over eleven minutes long and was a guided meditation from the Calm app with added interval timer for my piriformis stretches.
The focus of today’s meditation was about Shamatha, which is a form of Buddhist meditation where you focus your mind upon a single point and use that focus to clear and calm one’s conscious thoughts.
This is the sort of meditation that I am most familiar with and the talk concerning it’s practice and benefits really didn’t say anything new or anything I wasn’t already aware of. I found myself instead tuning out the woman’s voice and listening, instead, to the water drop like background music as I often do.
The thing is? This card was far more literal in its imagery than normal today. I very much just napped my day away, just like the person lying on the beach, toes tickled by waves as they doze in the sand. So too did I sleep… and sleep… and sleep.
It’s not surprising, since I pulled an all-nighter last night and didn’t get to bed until 5:30 in the morning. The message here, though, has to do with allowing yourself that rest more than the rest itself. Everyone needs a break now and then. Today’s card points out that my sleeping all day had far less to do with hiding from my depression and retreating from the world… and everything to do with the need for some sleep.
Therefore, the message in today’s card is about sometimes rest being about self care, and not retreat at all. And that’s not something to feel guilty about, but a natural biological need.
DECK USED: COSMIC SLUMBER TAROT
LionHart’s Mercury Retrograde Tarot Challenge Prompt
Topic: A reminder of why I deserve the good (I want) in my life.
Eight of Coins – You are a good and dedicated worker. Over time you have used your time and focus to hone your skills into an expertise (or three) that can be used to help in ushering in those good things you want out of life like stability and security.
Six of Coins atop The Moon – You reach out to help others through their times of uncertainty, providing an ear or a shoulder for their worries, and help in finding ways to overcome their uncertainty and fear and turn these things around into a direction that is authentic to them and their own path.
Page of Swords – You are always seeking a better way to understand and communicate with others. Better strategies to try to reach your aspirations. This constant openness to learning how to find a better way allows for good things to come to you more easily as you are erecting less hurdles and blocks to get in the way.
DECK USED: LONELY ICE TAROT
#DiscordTarotolicsFeb2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: Over what part of my life do I need to release some control?
Reading Summary: Responsibilities and strategy toward my aspirations (King of Swords) need to be set aside. You don’t get to control this (Strength Rx). Just let I the crappy shit happen for right now (Ten of Swords).
Take Away: This is called being given a talking to by the cards. I softened the message above, but it is pretty clear and blunt that at the moment I need to just let myself be in the depression. I have no control here and scrabbling for it isn’t helping anything. Pretending you are in control is also not helping anything.
It doesn’t mean wallow, but it does mean letting go and accepting that things will begin to get better at their own pace, not at whatever pace I want them to or try to set for them to move at.
DECK USED: COSMIC SLUMBER TAROT
As mentioned in the COTD section of this post, I consciously made the choice to not beat myself up after spending a good deal of my day asleep rather than up and being productive. Normally, regardless of not getting to bed by 5:30am, I would have made myself get up and stay up through the day instead of accepting that I needed the sleep and allowing it to happen guilt-free.