Today’s meditation was skipped. No excuses, I just didn’t end up doing it. I was entirely and utterly unmotivated to the point of actual avoidance.
I love the representation of the May Pole on the sun card, as the May Pole is a celebration of the sun’s reign in the sky and the first stirring of energy that rises up within the first breath of summer.
The card and it’s imagery is a message to remember how much I’m missing while I’m wrapped up in the darkness of my depression, and how much is waiting for me to enjoy and celebrate once I manage to pull myself out and back to even ground.
Although I can’t just “pull myself up by my bootstraps” and force the depression away, remembering that there’s fun and play and joy out there to return to helps in keeping the depression in perspective.
DECK USED: BONESTONE & EARTHFLESH TAROT
#DiscordTarotolicJan2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Ask the cards to tell you about something funny that will make you smile.
Okay so, a few years ago my friend J and I were hanging out and the guy said the most rediculous thing. In the middle of talking, I sneezed. I have horrible allergies, and I have a habit of holding in my sneeze a bit when they happen because otherwise I often end up with a sore throat or snot everywhere. Neither of those experiences are worth letting the sneezes loose, so I suppress them just a bit.
When J saw this, he turned to me with fully earnest expression and told me that I shouldn’t hold in my sneezes. That it’s important to let them out so the pressure doesn’t build up in your head during the sneeze and result in your eyeballs popping out. And that that’s why when people sneeze they close their eyes, but it’s not enough and you have to let your sneezes out too.
It was so hilarious that I laughed for a good five minutes, and for months later every time I thought about it I’d start cracking up again. Thinking of it now still makes me chortle a bit. The look on his face was just so earnest and guileless. He really believed it and was so worried for me… and all I could do was laugh.
DECK USED: TAROT DE MARSEILLE ANIMA ANTIQUA
Today I managed to actually do a bit of play with Gideon even though I had to do orders. It was really nice and something I haven’t been able to do in a really long time (work on an orders day). It wasn’t a long play, but I really enjoyed it a lot.