Today’s meditation was a little different than the norm of late. Instead of doing a guided meditation or using a timer, I settled in with my earbuds and my favorite meditation music playing, and focused on a little poem/quote that I saw on Casper the Boy Diviner‘s Instagram this morning. He wrote it, and it really spoke to me.
Sometimes I forget that not everything is about self improvement and moving forward. It’s important to remember what we’re doing now… right here in the now. And that’s what this little poem said to me today. I think that much of the time, I spend far too much time trying to strive for more and better instead of enjoying what and who I am in this moment.
Today’s draw is the Ace of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of the seed of new beginnings in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, creativity, and intuition. This can arise in the form of new relationships, new emotions or feelings, or new creative ideas among other things.
What stands out to me in this imagery is that the blood moon is bleeding. Honestly, I wouldn’t normally associate this card with the Ace of Cups, because… it’s red. I’m not entirely sure why I feel that way about the color red, but it just… I dunno.
Anyway, what I see here is a moon bleeding. Blood on the moon bleeding into a dark ocean. And to me this speaks more of endings than it does to beginnings. Perhaps I would feel differently about this imagery if I read the guidebook for this deck, but I’ve yet to dive into the book.
The good thing about endings is that beginnings come afterward. But first you must lance the wounds of the battle that has passed and wash away the cuts and bruises. Here, this is what I see. I see a representation of that time at the end of a journey when you finally get to take a shower, tend your wounds, lance the infection out of the wounds that became infected, and then move forward after. Here in this image, I see that lancing taking place… the preparation that must come before the beginning can… begin.
This card’s appearance today is a reminder to take time off to breathe and recover, to make sure that your wounds (especially those inner emotional ones) are being tended to properly and are healing.
DECK USED: BONESTONE & EARTHFLESH TAROT
LionHart’s Elements Tarot Challenge Prompt
Topic: Something I am asked to work on during January.
Reading Summary: More self-restraint (Knight of Wands Rx) on the things that I am obsessed about (The Devil) will in the end make me happier (Ten of Cups) rather than feeling so uncertain (The Moon).
Take Away: Uncertainty is bred by allowing my addictions and obsessions to run wild. This isn’t just about things that cost money like brand name cookies and decks, but also addictions like working too hard, pushing myself too far, etc. This month I’m asked to work on “slowing my roll” a bit, and a bit of a breather so that I can find balance and help my self find a comfy happy space. This is not one of my strong suits, but I am doing my best… and will continue to try.
DECK USED: NEON TAROT
#DiscordTarotolicJan2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: How have you grown over the past year?
Side note… I’m almost burnt out on the new years themes now.
Take Away: These cards are about being myself and allowing others to see the true me rather than the diluted and carefully restrained impression of me that I usually show.
I’ve always been very, very aware of my issues concerning social norms and ability to socialize “normally” with others. It has never been one of my strong suits.
Over the past year, as I’ve spent less time trying to please others and more time just trying to express myself clearly and do what I enjoy (as well as take care of myself) I’ve found that I’m far less hesitant to step in and offer my two cents or show parts of myself, my interests, and my personality that I would have otherwise kept hidden away from the world.