Today’s meditation was skipped today. I was feeling stressed about the orders that I needed to get done and sort of lost the battle with any of my self care stuff today, not just the meditation but the probiotic smoothie, the vitamins, the tea with peptides, yoga physio crap…. the whole thing. I’m definitely going to pay for it too.
Today’s draw is the King of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the areas of intellect, communication, ambitions, and instinct. The King in this suit is often associated with someone that is highly intelligent that has strategical acumen and leadership qualities rooted in their ability to lead through their ideas and skills in communication.
What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card today is the fact that the king’s throne is on wheels. He’s not sitting still and letting the world come to him, but sits upon a mobile throne, prepared to go where he is needed with the strength of his convictions behind him and intelligence to lead the way. (Okay, so the dude’s muscles also stood out but… of course they did. Just sayin’. I’m not blind. That particular notation had nothing to do with the reading tho.)
Right. So… the message today is about taking control by having a plan… a stress on the “plan” part of that. This card is saying if I want to take control of my orders and get done what needs done, there’s more to the process than just getting up and moving your ass… you need a plan and you need to focus on it and stick to it and make it happen.
DECK USED: HEAVEN & EARTH TAROT
#DiscordTarotolicJan2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: What do I need to focus on for self-care during this full moon?
Reading Summary: Don’t push too hard right now (Page of Wands). It’s okay to have some alone time if you need it, as long is it’s done in a healthy way (The Hermit) and you aren’t allowing the wolf in through the door in the process (Nine of Wands).
Take Away: Although I feel like I’ve managed to stop my slide down the walls of that dark pit, it would be a mistake during the full moon to use the energy available from the full moon to push myself to do more and dive into things.
Instead, I need to focus on taking care of myself and participating in healthy things that can fight back against the darkness. It is very easy at this time to tip over the line from healthy to unhealthy in my actions and thoughts. The Hermit card here is a reminder of just how close that line is and how easy it is to slip over it without realizing it, as alone time is something I crave often and yet it is not always healthy for me, while at other times it is immensely benificial.
DECK USED: INK WITCH TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I treat myself with more compassion?
Reading Summary: Instead of projecting your energy and ambitions outward (King of Crystals) and overfilling your plate with responsibilities that then turn into heavy burdens (Ten of Wicks), right now you need to focus upon fostering and sustaining your inner strength (Strength).
Take Away: Recovery from an MDE takes time and piling on responsibilities and additional crap to get done won’t help but instead will only slow down that recovery. A better path that will allow the healing to happen instead of ignoring those needs, is to focus on doing the things that build your inner strength and give you a bit more stability.
DECK USED: EARTH BONES TAROT
Damn. This is the first time since I started this self kindness section that I really can’t think of anything that I’ve done for myself today as a self kindness. Nor can I think of anything at this point and time just before bed that I can do for myself right now as a self kindness.