Today’s meditation was skipped. This is because I pulled an all-nighter last night with L packaging orders to ship out today. We didn’t finish until nearly six in the morning. At which point I went to bed to sleep and woke up just in time to haul ass to go get the packages out in the mail before the last mail truck left. So… I didn’t get to either my yoga/physiotherapy or my meditation today, and I’m sure to pay for it for a couple of days to come.
Today’s draw is the Eight of Air (Eight of Swords) which is traditionally a representation of… well essentially, being in your own way and/or blinding yourself to your own obstacles and as a result making things more difficult than they have to be. It’s all about getting in your own way, and all of the ways in which that can play out.
This is not what I see in this card, though. At all. I’m actually a bit confused by my reaction to this card as I’m struggling with the color combinations, which I find a bit disorienting.
What I see in this card today is in the imagery of the fox and the goose. It is a display of one’s inner nature, much like the old fable of the frog and the scorpion. It feels like a warning, although I’m not entirely sure what the warning is about.
So I would say that the message in today’s card is about making sure you are paying attention to the world around you, and those that surround you. If something seems off and out of place? Pay attention. Be aware when people’s actions are not matching the energy you feel coming from them. Don’t discount it as a fluke or unimportant. It’s not as inconsequential as you would like to believe.
DECK USED: COSMOS TAROT AND ORACLE
#TarotForGrowthJuly Challenge Prompt
Topic: I’m so overwhelmed.
Question: What can I do to release my fear of saying no?
Reading Summary: Embrace the natural cycles of life (Ten of Swords) instead of fearing them (The Moon). Focus on developing your skill at regulating output and practice some patience (Temperance).
Take Away: I’ve had a bit of a stalker thing going on with the Temperance card lately, and I wonder if this is the message that the card is trying to convey. It is a message about honing my regulating and moderation skills, and incorporating patience to do so. This is especially important in the saying “no” to adding too much onto my plate at once.
Add to that the need to get a handle on the trepidation that I feel when it seems something might be coming to an end. I try and sustain too much because I want to keep going what is before me and try new things and develop new possibilities. The problem is, when you preserve one while still working on adding and growth at the same time? Your plate fills up super fast.
Together these two messages indicate a need to learn how to decide on what “phase out” and what to keep going.
DECK USED: MIDCENTURIAN TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsJul2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: Where do I need to focus on directing more gratitude?
Reading Summary: When you’re feeling overwhelmed by choices (Seven of Shells), don’t just toss in the towel and walk away (Eight of Shells Rx). Instead stick around and weather through the storm (Apprentice of Feathers), and allow Gideon to help support you through these times (Elementor of Shells).
Take Away: The support that Gideon provides me in my day to day life is what I need to focus more gratitude toward at this time. He is there for me every day, and in any way that I need him. All I ever need to do is reach out, and there he is, ready and not just willing to help, but eager to help. He is my comfort, my anchor, my rock… and he is the calm in the storm when I am feeling overwhelmed and struggling with my own inner demons… or the outer ones as well.
I feel that I often come off as ungrateful for all of these things. Too wrapped up in my own shit, I forget to look up and look outward, and to acknowledge how much he loves me and how very invested he is in me.. in my life. In anything and everything I need from him. I am so very lucky. And so very grateful. I wish I was able to express it better, but I will continue to try to both notice these things more… and express my gratitude more clearly and more often.
DECK USED: THE FIFTH TAROT
#OwlandBonesJuly Challenge by Owl and Bones Tarot
Topic: sharpen // soften
Sharpen – Page of Wands – Now would be a good time to sharpen your focus upon those things that inspire you and create within you a spark of curiosity. Experiment and explore the ideas that kindle your inner spark, and release those that can’t hold up to that sharper focus.
Soften – Queen of Swords and Eight of Pentacles – Stop judging yourself and your work so harshly. Use your keen intellect to find potential outlets for your skills that will be of benefit instead of standing on the fence and waffling because your inner critic is having a heyday in your head.
DECK USED: STUDENT TAROT v4 GODARD’S BIRDS
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What do I feel when I work on something creative?
Reading Summary: Release (Ten of Wands Rx and Three of Swords Rx) and the birth of positive emotion in its place (Ace of Cups).
Take Away: There is a release in being creative. When I have pent up creative energy, it becomes a burden of sorts. A struggle of tamped down and clogged up energy that builds in pressure within me. When I create something new and allow my creative spark freedom to play, it releases this tension in my chest and it is like opening up a special part of my soul to breathe.
At the same time, this release can also be emotional, as when I create there is an element of emotion to it. A letting go of doubts and worries and inner judgements in order to instead wallow in potential and energies that feel positive and pleasing.
In both of these types of release, there is then an opening for something else to sweep in. And when I am enjoying my creative process, what sweeps in to replace these unpleasant sensations, emotions, and energy… are feelings of positivity. Emotional positivity that is new and bright and shiny, and not yet touched by or tarnished by the unpleasant effects of my inner critic’s negative dialogue.