Today’s meditation was just over twenty minutes long and a bit different than my normal meditation. I tried another of those “meet your spirit guides” meditations from YouTube.
There’s a couple of different things that I realized from today’s meditation that might be why I’m struggling with the guided meditations of this nature.
The first thing is the fact that they don’t really do any sort of guided relaxation beforehand. They just jump right in without any “take a breath” or “relax your muscles” or any relaxation technique before getting started. I think that this is something that would really help me in finding that level of consciousness that would get me where I need to be in the meeting your guides part of the meditation.
The second thing that I noticed is that literally all of the meditations I’ve tried on this topic are essentially astral travel assisted connections. They all involve the whole “rising above” out of body type guidance that you are given for astral travel work. The problem with this is that I don’t astral travel. Can’t, actually. The prevailing theory is that it is because I’m so grounded, and so deeply rooted into that grounding, that I can’t rise into that airy un-grounded space and float free. Regardless of the reason why, though, the fact of the matter is that I did really well with the meditation right up until the point that they tried to get me into the astral plane, and then… it all fell to shit.
So… I will keep trying. Maybe if I listen to enough of them sooner or later I will have learned enough of the non-astral methodology that I can then piece those parts together into a more grounded method that might work specifically for me.
Today’s draw is the Nine of Zephyrs (Nine of Swords) which is traditionally a representation of worries, anxieties and mental overwhelm leading to themes that do with anxiety and occasionally mental illness.
When I saw the card today, what really stuck out to me was the phrase “the sky is falling” which then brought to mind the story of Chicken Little from which that phrase originated.
This story is essentially about blowing things out of proportion which I didn’t really have a match for until this evening and the need to step back from a situation and allow others to deal with and handle it. Normally, it’s the sort of situation I would step in and act on, but I was unable to do so in this instance because I might have been overreacting and blowing things out of proportion due of my own personal issues concerning those involved.
It was… ridiculously hard to step away.
DECK USED: STOLEN CHILD TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsApr2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: Am I ethically obligated to improve myself?
Take Away: Absolutely. As I improve myself, I subsequently improve the world around me. Ethically speaking, it is the most base and basic way in which we can improve the world and the lives of others. Butterfly effect.
DECK USED: WHITE SAGE TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What does my inner critic say to me most often?
Reading Summary: It picks at my scarcity issues (Four of Cups) and my fear of losing my stability (Two of Pentacles). Other two cards are advice. Be good to yourself (Empress) and lighten up (The Sun). And, just sayin’? That Four of Cups so very speaks to me of those scarcity issues btw. LOL
Take Away: Scarcity and my fear of things falling apart are really my biggest fears, and are also the fears that were triggered the most strongly at the beginning of this pandemic. Although I’ve gotten a handle on those fears, that is where my inner critic tries to pick at the most when it raises its ugly head.
The cards were also kind enough to give me encouragement, though (cuz I pushed for a third card rather than letting it stick with the first two) in the form of advice, reminding me that I need to be kind to myself and make an effort to strive towards optimism when my inner critic is trying to pick at those worries.