Today’s meditation was just under fifteen minutes long and was another of those guided “contact your spirit guide” meditations which… was another flop.
Honestly? This one was all about the narrator’s voice. I really did try to stay focused and allow my body to relax into the meditation, but her voice was just so…. ugh. Not nasally or scratchy but somehow still grating. I can’t really explain it. I was sure I could relax to the voice and yet some odd quality in it just… wouldn’t allow me to relax enough to get into the meditation.
Today’s draw is the Queen of Oak (Queen of Pentacles) which is traditionally a representation of a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the areas of the physical world, nature, resources, etc. This translates into themes to do with a blend of practicality and strength combined with nurturing receptivity.
What really stands out to me in this image is the touch of hands over the heart and the life blood that mixes with the honey. It speaks to me as a reminder that even as you care for others, you still need to care for yourself as well.
I think that the message here and how it relates to my life is pretty self explanatory. I’m not the greatest at balancing my self care into the rest of my life and responsibilities, and that is what today’s card is encouraging me to work harder at.
DECK USED: STOLEN CHILD TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: Am I settling for less than I deserve?
Reading Summary: I spend too much time working alone (Three of Discs). I need to accept the help of others more readily, and will gain more strength as a result (Strength).
Take Away: The answer is yes. I am settling for less than I deserve because I don’t accept help from others as readily as I should. In accepting that help, it does not create a vulnerability or a weakness, even if this is what I have always been taught as a child. Instead, the ability to accept help from others is a strength, and one I need to work on developing if I want to stop settling for less than I deserve.
DECK USED: NEW LIMINAL TAROT
Question: What expectations am I holding for myself that need to be shed?
Reading Summary: I lean too heavily on trying to find value in past experience (Six of Pentacles) instead of accepting with quiet strength (King of Swords) that sometimes discomfort and uncertainty is just what it is (The Moon) and moving on from it (Eight of Wands).
Take Away: I truly do believe that our experiences are there to teach us something. If not to develop our human mind and self, than to teach and develop our inner spirit. The cards indicate that maybe sometimes I spend a little too much time looking for that benefit and finding answers to fill in where confusion resides, rather than just letting things go and moving on from them.
DECK USED: UNIVERSAL CELTIC TAROT