Today’s meditation was just under twelve minutes long and focused on fostering trust in yourself, your decisions, and your intuition. We all have moments of self doubt, but some more than others. And the more you devalue yourself, the harder it is to find that trust.
The guided meditation spoke on how sometimes, when you are feeling it that difficult to connect and trust your perceptions or your judgement, it’s okay. To build that trust back up, that first step can be as simple as accepting that things could be worse. Whatever choices you have made helped you avoid those scenarios that could be worse than the one you are now in. So take a breath and be kind to yourself, and give yourself a little credit.
Today’s draw is the Seven of Cups, which is traditionally a card that is a representation of being overwhelmed by choices, or having so many options that you need to take a moment to make the best decision available to you.
The cards in this deck seem to do this to me a lot, but what I see most in this card has more to do with the open mouth of the fish at the woman’s feet than with the cups or the traditional meaning. The strength of the draw to that open mouth speaks very strongly to me, and has its own voice that blends with that of the card’s more common interpretation. That is to say, the message that I see conveyed in this card today is that sometimes the obvious answer is not the right answer.
I don’t think that this is in reference to any one aspect of my life in the moment, but I do see a great deal of value in the reminder. Sometimes we get so wrapped up in habits and routine that we forget to look around and see if there’s a better way. Perhaps it’s time that I do just that.
DECK USED: CIRCLE OF LIFE TAROT
#TarotForGrowthMarch Challenge Prompt
Question: What might that readjustment look like in action? (Built off yesterday’s cards.)
Reading Summary: To connect more strongly with my emotional side to the point where I can more easily communicate what’s going on, I need to do what I do in order to connect with my intuition (Eight of Wind), and ensure that even when I am feeling at my worst I am reaching for the sun (The Sun over Ten of Wind). This will foster a stabilization and clarity of thought that will make room for me to build that stronger connection (Liege of Wind).
Take Away: Lots of swords here… the cards are an indication that a lot of what’s holding me back from connecting and communicating my more emotional self is the overbearing demands of my mind. Much like with when people struggle connecting to their intuition, I am letting my mind overpower and essentially “speak over” my emotional voice. In order to be able to better connect with an express my emotions therefore, I need to harness the mind and force it to step back.
DECK USED: A DARISA TAROT – THE LOMISHT
#DiscordTarotholicsMar2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What area of my life needs some extra attention?
Reading Summary: These cards are referencing hidden emotions that are preparing to spill over (Ace of Cups), because I haven’t taken enough time looking ahead and planning (Three of Wands) which is going to end up feeling like I shot myself in the foot (Seven of Swords).
Take Away: Yeah…. I’m going to have to do some digging on this. Preferably before I get to the shooting myself in the foot part of the equation. I think the lack of foresight is going to be about the upcoming issues caused by the current health scare going on. It’s going to screw me over (just like so many others) when I can’t make income and that is sure to effect me pretty negatively on an emotional level. I’d like to address the emotional side of things before the cup actually tips over and everything spills out in a mess, I’m just not sure if that’s going to be possible.
DECK USED: REIGNING ROUGE TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: Ask the high priestess card “How can I listen to my intuition more?”
Reading Summary: Work at not falling into bad habits that promote the blocking my intuition… things like anxiety (Nine of Swords) and hiding behind inner walls of apathy (Four of Cups).
Take Away: Those inner walls have slowly been coming down over time as you dig and play sledgehammer at them over the past twelve years. Over the last few years, it’s become very apparent that those walls had muffled more than just my emotions, but also my intuition to an extent. Anxiety is one of the triggers that makes me try to erect those walls and hide behind them, because I feel the need to appear calm, even when I am anything but. The advice of the High Priestess is to not retreat. Do not resurrect those walls. Do not hide behind those walls that remain.
DECK USED: LUNA SOL TAROT