Today’s meditation was again, nonexistent. And I am very aware that I’m not doing myself any favors by skipping it. In fact, I can feel the deterioration happening. I need to get back into doing it and will do a short body scan meditation before bed tonight then start fresh tomorrow morning.
What I see here is about my failures toward self care over the past week or so and my need to get back on track again. It’s time to let go of my self-bashing and release the disappointments in myself. It’s time to step up and take care of myself and move away from the emotional self-abuse that has been very subtly sneaking in on me behind the concealment of inner walls.
Tomorrow is another day, and another chance to do better than today.
DECK USED: HUSH TAROT
#TarotForGrowthMarch Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I harness my own enthusiasm to align with Aries’ fiery energy?
Interpretation: I may need a little help (Two of Cups) in reigning in my inner thoughts and struggles, wrestling them under control and sorting them into an actionable order (Queen of Swords). The chaos and mess of all the disappointments and nasty surprises that have happened over the past week, the feeling of shit that is so very important to me falling apart, and the mental chaos of anxiety and stress going on (Three of Swords) because of all this? It needs to be brought to heel with a gentle, strong hand. It needs to be sorted and organized and I need to find that control (Back to the Queen of Swords).
DECK USED: LAW OF ATTRACTION TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsMar2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I improve upon where I am spiritually in the week ahead?
Reading Summary: Be kind and nurturing (Queen of Chalices), concise and organized (Queen of Swords). Own that you know the way forward, you can take these experiences and learn from them (The Hierophant).
Take Away: The world is only as uncertain as you allow it to be. The cacophony of chaos that was mentioned in yesterday’s reading, and the feeling that the world is thrown into chaos and uncertainty… these are things I can get under control. To do that, I need to stay on and disciplined in my self care, and require myself to do the re-organizational work necessary to create a new schedule and a new structure for myself. The Hierophant reminds me that I have much to learn from this situation. Don’t shut down and close off and miss these lessons, instead pay attention and use what you learn to move forward with the strength that knowledge provides.
DECK USED: ARCANA IRIS SACRA TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I enhance my intuition through my dreams?
Reading Summary: Don’t disregard your dreams as unimportant (High Priestess) because they are not all fun and games (The Sun). Stop setting your dreams aside as unimportant (Eight of Cups).
Take Away: I actually wasn’t sure where this reading would go, because… as the cards so very clearly called me out on, I usually disregard my dreams as unimportant and without relevance. The cards here indicate that the reason that my dreams do not enhance my intuition is because I choose to treat them in that way, and to change that attitude would create an opening for my dreams to step forward and enhance my intuitive process.
DECK USED: GOBLIN TAROT RWS EDITION