What Is Under My Control?

IMG_3333Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and focused upon allowing for your flaws and imperfections, because it is only in imperfection that perfection itself can be found. We all have flaws and things about ourselves that we’re not proud off or are embarrassed about.   The topic of today’s meditation was to say that it’s okay.

It’s okay to be flawed.  It’s what makes us human.   Yes, I believe that it’s important to strive towards being better.  But, it’s also important to accept that your flaws are not something to hate about yourself.  You can strive to be better while still accepting that your present self is okay.

So many people spend their lives unwilling to know themselves well and love and accept themselves for who and what they are.  They hide from their flaws, refusing to see them or choosing to not accept them and shaming themselves. This feels like such a waste of time to me. If there is truly something about yourself that you do not like… wouldn’t a better use of that time be to work at improving in some way?  Whether that be through change of whatever that “flaw” might be… or through your perception of yourself possessing it.

Six of Pentacles - Circle of Life TarotToday’s draw is is the Six of Pentacles, which traditionally is a representation of give and take, harmony, and charity in the area of one’s finances, resources, and the physical world.  The card speaks of finding balance between the haves and the have-nots.

Like most of the cards I’ve pulled so far for this deck, what I see in the imagery of this card is a bit different than the traditional meaning.   I love this about this particular deck, and about the Hush Tarot as well, actually.

There is a balance here.  A form of charity here in the imagery of this card, but to me the imagery feels more like protection.   Between the circle of rope that feels like a barrier you would make when casting a circle of protection for magic, to the robed figure bent over to two sleeping forms…. it all speaks to me of protection.

The message here is about caring for those that need your help, and protecting what’s truly important.  In the mess of everything going on right now in the world, I think that like many others, I have sometimes become distracted by all the different worries and concerns going on.  I fuss over finances and I focus on all the shit that’s falling apart both in my life and in the economy…. but the message here is to not focus so much on those things out of your control.   Instead, it’s time to focus on what you can control and let the rest go.


#TarotForGrowthMarch Challenge Prompt
: How can I embrace those shadows with loving kindness? (Built off yesterday’s cards.)

Wildwood Tarot

Intuitive Interpretation: Try to embrace what you have while you have it. You’ll be back to your regular amounts of alone time soon enough. Take advantage of this added time with those you love, and involve them in your works. Allow them to influence your work (both of the mundane and magical varieties) with their joyous feminine energy.

Take Away:  Instead of chafing against the added contact, I need to keep in mind how fortunate I am to have people to love me and care for me, and allow me to care for them in turn.  Yes, I miss my alone time, but this is also an opportunity to become closer with L and Z, and one way to do that is to invite them to help me in activities such as my home business work as well as in my spellcraft and rituals.


#DiscordTarotholicsMar2020 Challenge Prompt
: What are my strengths when dealing with others?

Tarocco degli Animali

Reading Summary:  There is a sense of control and balance (Two of Coins) in how I relate to others while providing them with a feeling of security (Six of Cups) and comfort (Six of Coins).  This ability doesn’t come from a place of brute strength, but from a more subtle but solid sense of inner strength (La Forza).

Take Away:  This is about being reassuring and providing a sense of stable security.

I really hope that is true and is something that I provide for others, but I have very little ability to see myself through other’s eyes, and although I have the ability to examine multiple perspectives on a vast array of topics… I can’t seem to grasp the perspectives of others concerning myself.  Even the times when I’ve asked, I hear their perspectives… the good and the bad… and it’s really wonderful to hear but I can’t seem to see it myself when it’s about… myself.


#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
: How can I continue to improve my intuitive messages?

Animal Totem Tarot

Reading Summary: Keep plugging away at it and stay focused on what I want while taking care to slip between the fingers of obstacles that try to get in my way.

Take Away:  My current journey for improving my intuition involves learning more about mediumship and how to control the ability that I discovered (unexpectedly) I possess last fall.   That said, in order to get to that point, I have a lot to learn first, including how to develop a stronger and more conscious relationship with my guides.

The cards indicate (much as a different reading on the same subject a couple months ago indicated) that it’s going to be a long road and take a lot of time and determination.  I can and will “get there”, but it’s going to take dedication and I need to watch out for pitfalls and road blocks along the way that could end up distracting me from my goal if I let them.



Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?


EarthThree of Swords and Cloak of Invisibility – Now is the time to turn around my attitudes and habits concerning my current situation.  Throw off that cloak and come out into the light and use this time to delve into the disaster of the physical world repercussions of Covid-19 on your life and fiercely confront and find a way forward from these struggles.  Be fierce… prepare to win.

AirEight of Wands, Empress, Skipping Stones – I need to look at delving for those things that will help nurture and calm me.  Now isn’t a time to be stirred up and agitated, it’s a time to pause and reflect, to wait, and seek out methods and paths that will fit you.  Now is a time for planning, not action.

WaterFive of Cups and Disappearing Ice – Take time to focus on what you do have instead of training your focus on what you don’t.  It’s time to count your blessings and work on accepting that there are some things that are out of your control. Once things are out of this holding pattern you will be able to find momentum and stability once more, but for now it’s time to let go and have a little faith that things will come around and balance out in the end.

FireSix of Swords and Flowers In Your Hair – Now is a time for taking a leap out of the stagnancy of worries and fears, and into the joy of exploration and creation.  Take advantage of this extra time not just to plan but have a little fun.  It’s okay to not work all the time… try and fit a little play and pleasure into this week as well.

WaningThe Bounty Fool – This is actually a really appropriate card for the moment, with funds on the decline and very little income coming in, and resources such as food and the like so difficult to find and keep up with. I read the book for this card, and it provides a reminder that I really like.  That reminder being that “there’s really no lack of abundance, only a lack of imagination controlling the moment”.   This is a really good point.  Although over the next week abundance may seem to be in steady decline, it will be important to remember that imagination and “outside of the box thinking” can help… and even step in to “save the day”.

WaxingThe Fool’s Tax –  The “Fool’s Tax” is the price you pay for not listening to your intuition and not following your inner guidance. Everyone has to pay up for bad choices because that’s how you learn from them.  Make sure that you are paying attention your intuitive voice and moral compass this week, and take care to make good choices in order to help mitigate such repercussions as much as possible.

Take Away – It’s time to start looking at things and dealing with the current situation a bit differently.  Beating yourself up isn’t working.  Now is a time to nurture and inspire.  Take time for fun and creativity as well as self care, and focus your mind and your drive upon preparing for when this cloud of disease and destruction lifts so that you can hit the ground running once this time of stillness and waiting has ended.