Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and focused on a full body scan for the most part. It was not a guided meditation, and although I had intended on going for a full fifteen minutes, I was interrupted by a phone call from the doctor’s office and couldn’t get back into it after I’d hung up. (Everything is fine, it’s just bloodwork related.)
What I see, though? Is spark.
The message contained in the Five of Wands in today’s draw is that sometimes conflict actually has the potential to create. It has the ability to get the juices flowing and, although conflict and trials can be a struggle, they can also provide a much needed clearing of air and energy, which makes room for something new and better.
DECK USED: THE SPACIOUS TAROT
#TarotForGrowthJanuary Challenge Prompt
Question: What does my mind want me to know about 2020?
Reading Summary: I need to take time to examine what I’ve done and what I can do better (Judgement), especially in the area of what I want from my business (Queen of Fire), and in which direction I want to push it in (Knight of Fire).
Take Away: I very often associate my creative business with fire, as that is a huge part of where my inner spark and drive are directed. It’s no different here, where the answer to what my mind wants me to know for the year ahead focuses upon that business. This is a reminder to look back at the time that has passed and base my future momentum upon what has and has not worked rather than constantly focusing on what I want in the future.
DECK USED: LOST FOREST TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsJan2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What do you feel you deserve?
Reading Summary: The desire for something better (Six of Swords) obtained through a combination of optimism (The Sun), self possession and strength (The Emperor), collaboration with others (Three of Coins), and a nurturing warmth towards myself and others (The Empress).
Take Away: What I see here are the elements that I feel I am not strong enough in. Elements that are building blocks to a change for the better, but are not my strongest qualities. Considering the question, the cards indicate I believe I deserve to be better at these particular qualities and, as a result, deserve for things to be better in my life because of them.
It is not realistic, of course, as you do not miraculously develop such qualities… you learn them and work at them. They are something to strive for, not something to simply obtain.
DECK USED: FOREST CREATURES TAROT
Question: Three cards that pertain to my goals. (Rephrased for specificity.)
Reading Summary: Lots of appearances of the King of Wands over the past few days for me. If I want to find a sense of balance between my struggle for security (Nine of Wands) and a sense of contentment (Nine of Cups), I need to work at embodying a more controlled attitude toward my passions and drive (King of Wands).
Take Away: A lot of times my passions and drive, both for the creative aspects of my business as well as my business as a whole, cause me to push too hard. This creates a sense of imbalance and defensiveness that does not at all foster a sense of contentment. If I apply more control and mediation to my drive, I can find a better balance and feel more satisfaction with my work.
DECK USED: THE HYDRA-NIX ARCANA TAROT