Today’s meditation was skipped.
Today’s draw is the Knight of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of an active beta energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s passions and drive, willpower and determination, as well as their moral compass and beliefs.
Combined with the affirmation card for today, what I see here is a reminder that life is precious and we need to be passionate about enjoying it, savoring it, and being grateful for it.
Sometimes this is extremely difficult. Sometimes… impossible. But, it’s important even in those times to look at what catches the eye, sparks interest, and allows us to find a moment of joy to savor, even when it’s more fleeting than we’d like.
DECK USED: PHANTASMA TAROT AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK
The Emperor atop Nine of Wands – Your “protective walls” came up out of ingrained habit to hide behind when your emotions became intense. They cut out the light that others love and kindness shine on you.
You are beginning to now be able to lower these walls and allow Gideon back in a little at a time, others will eventually follow in time.
What can I do to be more fully receptive of this light?
Seven of Swords atop Five of Swords – Stop fighting and trying to wiggle away. The defense mechanisms of your youth cause you to pull away, and although those defense mechanisms were a part of your past, and may spring up from time to time in the present, you don’t need to encourage them by leaning in and allowing them to steal any more of the light than necessary.
Where have these contemplations helped me find clarity?
The Magician – Acknowledging that there is a problem is the first step (and most powerful tool) in fixing that problem.
Today’s contemplations are helping to bring these habits concerning those walls into sharper focus and, as a result, returning the power and control back into my hands.
What can I do to further build on this moving forward?
Page of Cups – You are still learning how to identify and process your emotions. This is all very new to you still. You have learned a lot, but are still at the beginning stages of this learning process. Don’t get discouraged and give up.
DECK USED: OSTARA TAROT
Two of Dreams (Air) – Autonomy. I am not bound by anyone or anything (other than societal laws, obviously). I am independent and follow my intuition and moral compass, unaffected by peer pressure or confined by other’s expectations. Everything I am and do is my choice, and there is always room to change direction as needed.
Temperance – Moderation is extremely difficult for me; a jagged pill that is tough to swallow. But, I accept it’s necessity and am aware of the dangers that come with my level of compulsive/addiction issues. Moderation is not easy, but it is something to be grateful for, as otherwise my life could (and would) spiral out of control.
Queen of Skins (Fire) – I am not alone in my passions and interests. My passion and drive inspires others and supports their drams, and they in turn support mine.
DECK USED: BLOOD MOON TAROT
Again, playing catch up from over a week ago. I just don’t remember.