Today’s meditation was skipped. In fact my entire day and routine has gone to shit.
Today I am grieving for someone I considered in many ways more of a father to me than my own passed away. There was time for a quick FaceTime call to say goodbye, and the imagery in this card mimics the sight of him in his hospital bed, in the angle of the body, the tilt of his head… etc.
These cards are a message of reassurance. They speak of him leaving on his own terms. That he was ready, and it was time.
DECK USED: GNOSTIC TAROT AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK
Overwhelmed by the gravity of the choices before me on how to move forward.
What is the cause of this?
Crystallize and Two of Wands
Plans frozen and cracked. Holding pattern.
What can I do about this?
Earthquake and Ten of Pentacles
Focus on providing and receiving stability as the world shakes under your feet. Brace each other.
DECK USED: PHENOMENA ORACLE AND PERSONAL SPACE TAROT
Three of Fire – Hesitation. Yourself. Not “everyone” is on board. Within the shadow of the self there lies resistance to moving forward.
Distracting My Attention
The Fool – You want to fuck around instead of buckling down. This longing for something more carefree and less responsible is new for you and keeps tugging your focus off of your goals.
Tying My Hands
Man / Hero of Air – Impulsivity. When you impulsively follow the fool’s lead, you decrease your options by wasting time chasing windmills.
DECK USED: GNOSTIC TAROT
I made sure to keep up with my eating today, regardless of the fact I want hungry.