Today’s meditation was just under nineteen minutes long and was a guided meditation with interval timer for my piriformis stretches (which, yes, are still being a painful pain in the ass).
The focus of today’s meditation was about the reverence we feel for that which is beyond our reach and our ken. I said something about this earlier today in a chat when speaking about “how tarot works” and where the messages come from. It’s important to keep in mind that there is far more in this world that we don’t grasp or understand than there is that we do. This doesn’t mean that everything we don’t understand is magic or metaphysical or even spiritual… but it means that we need to respect that the potential for what is out there is vast and appreciate that potential of possibilities.
It is the hand (big surprise here) that stands out to me in the imagery on this card today and it speaks to me of saying “stop”. Of having an awareness of yourself and what you are willing to put up with (the eye in the center of the palm) and being able, when things go beyond that point, to put a halt to them and move on to something better.
The message in today’s card is about diligence. It’s about watching out for yourself and making sure that you remain in a place where you can be yourself and be true to yourself… and stand up for yourself by saying “no” when something doesn’t follow along those lines for you.
Right now, what I want to say no to is the depression that is weighing me down and dragging at my insides like barb-filled black tar. I want to turn away from it and push it away… but it is not one of those things that I have a choice in. But what I can do is continue to work at being authentic to myself, true to my values and beliefs, and patient as the world inside my brain begins to shift and right itself again… eventually.
DECK USED: MOON DUST TAROT
The Radical Love Tarot Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I better recognize and appreciate the abundance in my life?
Reading Summary: Remember that you are strong and capable and have the ability to take control of a situation, turn it into something you believe in and are willing to fight for, and balance that into your life.
Take Away: This is about autonomy and the ability to build and manifest what I desire in life without “upsetting the apple cart” of my life balance in the process. It’s important, especially right now while I’m struggling with my depression, to remember that I am still in control on what I do, where I go, what I stand for, and what I manifest in my life.
DECK USED: DESTINY DECK
#DiscordTarotolicsFeb2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: What in my life makes me feel the most thankful that’s in need of acknowledgement?
Take Away: No hemming and hawing, no waiting for later. I rarely need to “sit on it” when needing to make a decision. I know what is right for me and I reach for it, and am able to allow the other choices that are not as fitting to fall away. I see a lot of people that aren’t able to do this and when they are confronted with a number of choices before them, they stall out with an inability to decide and become overwhelmed by those choices.
This is something that I very rarely have to worry about, as the majority of the time I know what is right for me and am decisive in reaching for it. The thing is? I rarely acknowledge this in myself or even think about it… until I see those others out there that struggle under the need to make choices. I am very grateful I don’t spend a lot of time stewing in my choices. Very thankful.
DECK USED: MOON DUST TAROT
I spent time organizing my decks today. I’ve been feeling frustrated by the lack of space and how I struggle to find the decks I need sometimes. It’s been bugging me a lot lately and eating at me. I can’t really do anything about the lack of shelf space right now, but I was able to get my “floating” decks (decks that don’t currently have a home on a shelf or in a trunk) into a semblance of order that will hopefully make things easier.