Today’s meditation was again… skipped. I know it’s not a good idea to skip my meditations. I also know that even if I feel like they’re not doing me any good? They are. The fact that when I meditate daily my resting heart rate drops nearly ten beats per minute is proof that they do in fact make a difference. But I skipped… just sayin’.
Today’s draw is the Ten of Pentacles, which is traditionally about sharing your success and satiation with those around you. This isn’t charity, but rather the next step after wallowing in your success, where you reach out to those you love and invite them into that good feeling of security and completion.
What I see in the message for this card today has to do with gratitude for what you have. Not everyone is wealthy in monetary ways, but everyone is wealthy in some sort of way. Sometimes it is good health, or they have a wealth of luck, a wealth of love, a wealth of friends… all of these are ways to be wealthy and there are so many more.
The thing about wealth is that if you do not see it as wealth and feel gratitude for it… then it’s not wealth. It’s just another “thing” in your life. The message in today’s card is to acknowledge those things that make you wealthy. Acknowledge them and be grateful for them.
In my own life I am wealthy in many ways. Although I am not monetarily wealthy, I’m no longer destitute as I was a decade ago. I have a home that I own, a mortgage that is over half paid off, a twin sister who loves me fiercely, family and friends that I cherish and who love me, a partner who’s love borders on obsession in the best possible ways, and the freedom and independence to pursue the things that I enjoy and that interest me. These are only some of the many things I have to be grateful for each and every day.
DECK USED: HEAVEN & EARTH TAROT
LionHart’s Elements Tarot Challenge Prompt
Question: Where am I asked to relax a little more or take a break?
Reading Summary: Ease off on the “balls up and keep moving” (Strength) even when you feel like everything has turned to shit (Nine of Swords). Your plans will wait until you’re in a better place (Three of Wands).
Take Away: It’s okay to take the time I need to recover. No one is pushing me forward but my own unrealistic expectations that I move forward at the same pace now in the middle of an MDE as I would when not in the middle of an episode. Plans will wait, everything will be fine. Just take a breath and slow down.
DECK USED: INSIGHT TAROT
#DiscordTarotolicJan2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Pull your most and least favorite cards from your deck and explain why you feel that way.
The Hanged Man reminds me that each hurdle I come upon (of which there have been many, and will surely be many more) is an opportunity for betterment in some way, not a road block.
The card says to me that it’s okay to have a life filled with struggles and hurdles, strife and discord, woe and adversity. These things are lessons in life that teach me how to become better. Better at the things I want to do… Better at the way I find my joy… And, just an all around better person as a whole.
The Hanged Man is a reminder that these things are there not to drag me down and make me miserable. Instead, they are there to create perspective, wisdom, and strength, as well as to foster deeper roots within myself and my life with which to anchor me through the hardest parts, like a tree standing strong in a storm is anchored deep within the soil.
Learning lessons and learning different perspectives is not always pleasant. It’s painful and uncomfortable and extremely awkward. To me the Hanged Man is a representation of how these struggles hold immeasurable worth, if I’m willing to look beyond the discomfort to see what’s waiting there for me to learn.
Least Favorite – The Wheel of Fortune
So… my reason for loving the Hanged Man was long and I really waxed poetic. But, my answer for the Wheel of Fortune is much shorter and more succinct. I dislike the Wheel of Fortune because it represents to me the unpredictability of life. Ups and downs, fast times and slow… it’s never stable, never still, always moving and changing, always one shift away from the next imbalance, the next turn, the next change.
Even for those that see the Wheel of Fortune as a luck card, the fact is that it is a luck card that represents both good luck… and bad. There’s no dependability and no stability there. And that just sucks IMO.
DECK USED: ZOLAR’S NEW ASTROLOGICAL TAROT
Today I allowed myself not to work. I did do a couple of client readings that were due to be sent out, but other than that, I stayed away from work entirely. And I’m not beating myself up over it. Instead I played with Gid and trimmed the borders down on the Magical Tarot by Arisa Chibara for L.