Today’s meditation was skipped. Not for any particular reason but mostly just because… well, I didn’t feel like it. I know it’s not a good excuse, but it’s what happened.
Today’s draw is the Ace of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of the seed like beginnings of new ideas, new ambitions, new knowledge, or new communication. The key here is in the fact that it’s the sword suit, which deals with intellect, logic, communication, and ambitions… and an Ace, which is about the seeds of something new.
What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card today is the moss-like drape of vegetation from the sides of the crown. The book calls these “laurels”, although… they don’t look like laurel to me.
The reading that I did earlier this morning was about alone time, and making sure that I seek out alone time for myself even when it feels like a waste of time or some sort of frivolousness. This drape of mossy “laurel” is a reminder to me of that healthy alone time that I need to make sure I’m getting enough of.
The seed of the ace is there to encourage me to look for new ways to get that alone time, new places to go and things to see, new trails to hike and locations to visit so that I continue to stay interested and eager to seek out that needed alone time whenever I’m able instead of losing interest and procrastinating on it.
DECK USED: HEAVEN & EARTH TAROT
#DiscordTarotolicJan2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: What does your inner child crave that you’ve been ignoring?
Reading Summary: You’re paying too much attention to feelings of scarcity (Five of Jars atop Ten of Petals Rx). Step up and take control (The Emperor) instead of doubting your intuition and emotional growth (Page of Jars Rx).
Take Away: Stability and validation concerning my emotions is what my inner child craves that I have been ignoring. The thing is? I honestly ignore my inner child as much as possible. Maybe because it’s called my inner “child” yeah? I don’t relate well to children and have a hard time relating to that term as I was never really much of a “child” even when I was one.
That, of course, means that my “inner child” is quite repressed and neglected. I only let it out to “play” when I’m feeling good, and considering how much time I spend in the slippery slide of depression, crawling out of that dark pit, or hovering right on the cusp of the pit at risk of falling in? That’s not a lot of freedom for my inner child to get some air. Right now (not surprising as I’m sliding down that slope of the pit) my inner child is feeling vulnerable and unsure of itself and, due to my trying to ignore the encroaching depression… invalidated.
DECK USED: EARTH BONES TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I stop procrastinating?
Reading Summary: Take charge (The Emperor) and do one small little thing at a time (Temperance), and you will feel more nurtured and able as a result (The Empress).
Take Away: Maybe it’s time to start doing a few orders a day, one cleaning task a day, take chores and things that need to be done in bite sized pieces… rather than putting them off to do in large chunks because it just feels like “too much trouble” or overwhelming. That’s the major excuses that I have for procrastinating most of the time after all…. that it feels like “too much” or “too much trouble” or is just overwhelming for some reason..