Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long, and was a guided meditation with interval timer for my piriformis stretching.
The topic of today’s meditation was actually an activity in love and compassion where you first build an energy of love and compassion that you direct toward yourself, and then towards a loved one, and finally towards the world as a whole.
I had an interesting experience in the middle of this meditation. I was wide awake, so it was not a dream, but it felt as if my consciousness… slipped into something. A dark place of flickering lights like stars in a midnight sky with a flowing swirl of navy and blue similar to those photos you see of traffic where the shutter has been left open and all of the lights are streaked swirls instead of points of light. There was a moment when I seemed to move within that swirl of blue streaks like a leaf in a stream. It was only for a brief moment, and then I was back within my meditation.
I think I might have astral traveled… which would be a first. But I’m not 100% certain, as that is not something I’ve ever done before. In fact, it’s something I’ve been told I will be unable to do unless I ease up on my grounding and rooting. As I haven’t eased up on these things… this brings into doubt that that was what I experienced.
First of all, I took this card as a demand to do exactly that. Although my phone has been going off with orders all day, I have made a concerted effort to ignore work for the majority of the day and do a little self care instead. I even took a nap. The only thing I’ve kept up on was responding to customers.
Beyond that… what stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card today is the little bird. That bird looking over the resting man feels a lot like the stained glass window with the figures in it that is in the traditional RWS cards.
In both cases, what I see is a loving, caring watchfulness. A quiet wait and gentle protection that is less about brute strength and more about love and kindness. Perhaps the bird is in fact the soul of the man, watching over the body while it recovers.
The message in today’s card is that there’s more to kindness to self than just going through the motions. You have to mean it, and you have to trust that when you are taking care of yourself that your responsibilities and the world around you can take care of themselves for a while.
DECK USED: WINTER WAITE TAROT 2019 EDITION
#DiscordTarotolicsDec2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: Where should I direct my focus this week to foster my relationship with myself?
Reading Summary: Make sure you’re practicing a bit of moderation (Temperance) when planning your direction (Two of Wands) and forward motion into the future (Six of Swords) concerning the things you want to pick up and explore (Page of Wands).
Take Away: These cards are a reminder that I can’t take on every single little thing that strikes my interest or pulls at my attention. There are so many things that I want to do and explore, and it always feels like there’s not enough time to do them all. So I always try to pile on more and more of them onto my plate so that I can make sure I get to explore them all.
But the thing is? When I pile on so much, suddenly none of it is any fun and it all feels like a chore. Moderation is important. Extremely difficult for me, but important. Which means prioritizing is important as well. If I can’t get to everything I want to do and try, that means I need to make sure I prioritize the ones that feel the most important ahead of the rest.