Conscious Gratitude

IMG_8021Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and was another guided meditation with interval timer for my piriformis stretching.

The topic of today’s meditation was about one’s inner narrative.  That is to say, it was about how you talk to yourself in your head.  Not just what you say, but the tone in which you say it. Are you berating and cruel to yourself with that inner voice? Or are you kind and nurturing?

It brought up a story that these guided meditations have brought up before, last time concerning a different topic.  The story of the Two Wolves, which is about feeding the wolf within you that you want to grow strong.  Do you want the cruel and savage voice that tears you down and picks you apart to grow strong?  Or do you want the inner voice that fosters your well-being and supports you to grow strong?   The one you give the most air-time in your head is the one that grows strong…. so make sure you’re feeding the right wolf.

Tarot de Mona Lisa - Nine of PentaclesToday’s draw is the Nine of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of success, independence, and gratitude for the abundance in one’s life.

What really stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card today is the bird.  Not just do the colors really draw my eye, but so too does the coin the bird offers to the woman. What this symbolizes to me is that sometimes our fortune is given rather than toiled for.   Sometimes it is earned through trust and support and connection with others rather than through our own labor.

The message here is that no mater where our bounty comes from, it’s important to practice gratitude.  To pay attention and be grateful rather than taking the boon for granted, or its source for granted either. Mindfulness is important.  Saying thank you is important.  Taking time to just enjoy and remind yourself how fortunate you are is important. Don’t take what you have for granted or it may not stick around and continue to be so generous.


#DiscordTarotolicsDec2020 Challenge Prompt
: What is my greatest strength that is currently hidden from me?

Touchstone TarotReading Summary:  The ability to see into and understand (The High Priestess) the motivations of others (Seven of Swords), and the ability to bring positive influences and pleasure (The Star) into the contentment of home (Four of Wands) can bolster the endeavors your driven to accomplish (King of Wands).

Take Away: This is about the greatest strengths that are hidden within me and how they can support my ambitions and goals.

The ability to understand other’s motivations is something I want to have, but something that is, in many cases, still undeveloped.  It is something I delve into often, though.  Something I seek out the counsel of others about in order to get a chance to see other perspectives and better wrap my mind around why people do and say the things they do and what the motivations behind those words and actions might be.  I have not really thought about how I could use this skill to further my own personal goals and ambitions, but maybe this is something I need to look into in more detail.

The ability to bring trust and positivity into the contentment of home life is also something I would not have normally considered in relation to my goals and ambitions.   I see how it could affect and support them, though.  Especially as I run a home business.  A business that those that live with me contribute to.


Morning Bonus Read – Distractions

The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
“A fun one for this week! But be aware, accidental shadow work can be done with this one 😅”

Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer Playing Cards1. Ten of Clubs atop Seven of Diamonds – Your habit for piling on too much responsibility on yourself and too many projects makes it difficult to stay the course without getting distracted. There’s always so much to explore and to do, and you always seem to think you have a bigger plate to pile things on than you actually have.  It’s hard to “stay the course” with the long term projects sometimes with so many different things trying to tug on your attention at one time.

2. Four of Hearts atop Six of Diamonds

One of those things you need to make sure you are staying focused on is your meditation practice. Every time you skip this practice, you facilitate bad habits perpetuated by your past.  Instead of allowing your past and the bad habits that have grown from there to dictate your life and your well-being, work harder on staying focused on the things that help you to be better.. feel better… and be healthier.  Your meditation is at the top of this list and should not be ignored.

3. King of Spades – All that crap that you want to put on your plate but have no room for isn’t as important as you think it is. Strategizing can only take you so far.  Let it go… let the task master that demands more of yourself every single day ease up a bit. You’re not allowing yourself enough time to breathe.