Today’s meditation was a bit longer than normal at fifteen minutes, as I added on a few extra stretches to my piriformis stretching. It was just a quiet meditation, and I had a bit of trouble focusing, which is fine. I’ve picked up my yoga practice a bit, so the piriformis stretches are a part of that . I expect to be a bit sore over the next few days.
Today’s draw is the Mercury card, which is a part of the oracle cards that are included in this deck. Although I am not really strong in astrology, I do know that Mercury rules over communication which is why when Mercury goes into retrograde so many people freak out and so much seems to go awry… once communication goes off the tracks? Everything else soon follows.
When I look at this card, I get very confused. Somehow skulls and face with one eye and a smile and a hand and snakes and ribbons and long tongues and…. it all gets messed up in my head when I look at the imagery on this card. It’s a fucking clusterfuck mess, and i can’t seem to ever piece out the imagery to make sense of what I’m seeing.
In fact, what I see in this card’s imagery today is… not really there at all. Because when I look at this card, I see a nude figure curled into itself made out of the hand in the upper right hand corner, and the curvature of a bare spine from shoulders to hips out of the lower left skull.
What I see in these things that are not really there is vulnerability and a need to retreat from chaos. Today’s card is a reminder of this. Of the fact that when I feel vulnerable that I have a tendency to try and curl into myself and away from the chaos. It is a reminder that that is the old way of doing things… and I’m learning another way. A better and healthier way.
DECK USED: COSMOS TAROT AND ORACLE
#TarotForGrowthJuly Challenge Prompt
Topic: I’m so burnt out all the time.
Question: How can I rest more effectively?
Reading Summary: Learn from the new knowledge that you’re gaining emotionally to guide you (Knave of Chalices) instead of falling back on the fire that is sparked through conflict (Five of Wands) and charging ahead (The Chariot).
Take Away: This is about managing my energy in a more resourceful way. Instead of spilling my energy all over the place and using the flash fire of passions to drive me forward, I need to seek a gentler way of motivating myself so that it is easier to unwind from that motivation to rest more easily.
DECK USED: TAROT OF THE JOURNEY TO THE ORIENT
#DiscordTarotholicsJul2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I become more sure of myself?
Reading Summary: Move away (Eight of Cups) from the belief that you have to be the end-all be-all and be able to do everything all the time (The World). Take some self reflection and allow those things that really aren’t any of your responsibility to fall away (The Hermit).
Take Away: This message has to do with more than just my actions and physically taking on too much, but also my sense of inner responsibility. I need to remember that I am ultimately only responsible for myself. This is because when I take on more than I can handle, or responsibilities that are not mine to take on, when I then fail, stagger, or struggle… my inner critic uses this as fodder to tear myself down through it’s negative inner dialogue. That inner dialogue is all about being a failure, and I shouldn’t be taking that on for things that aren’t my responsibility in the first place.
DECK USED: KARMA TAROT
#OwlandBonesJuly Challenge by Owl and Bones Tarot
Topic: hold your ground // step aside // share the path
Hold Your Ground – Five of Cups – Against your depression and pessimism.
Step Aside – Ten of Coins – From the responsibility of balancing everything on your shoulders… sometimes they’ll flourish just fine on their own without your stressing over them.
Share The Road – Two of Swords – With the fact that sometimes you do have to make difficult decisions even when you don’t want to. That’s OK. Just be well informed first.
DECK USED: SLAVIC TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: When am I least creatively confident?
Reading Summary: When joyous fun (The Sun) is torn down by selfish words (Queen of Swords Rx) by someone that should be a nurturing figure in my life (The Empress).
Take Away: When I’m having my fun and/or expectations crushed by my mother.