Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and I admit that I was a little distracted because I was eager to get out and go hiking. I did a second meditation in the woods lying naked on the forest floor in the mountains before going above the treeline, and that was much more relaxing. Although I didn’t time it, I would estimate the meditation probably lasted about half an hour… maybe a bit longer.
Today’s draw is the Ten of Air (Ten of Swords) which is traditionally read as “the end of the line” of the tragedies of the Swords suit and is a culmination of the suit’s struggles. It indicates themes that have to do with defeat, betrayal, and wounds that cut deep.
What stood out strongest to me in the imagery of this card today is the defeated slump of Medusa’s posture, but even more so… the snake that is closest to her face which then brings my attention to the others in the light… and from there the others yet still hidden in the shadows. In noticing this I feel that they must offer some sort of comfort. They have been with her all this time and are surely, even as they are a part of her, also a comfort to her that they are there in this moment.
The message in today’s card is about not allowing times when you feel defeated by wounds (internal or external) that have cut you down also isolate you. Take comfort in others, seek out those that love you and care about you, find those that will sit and make space for you to just be… you. Don’t look to them to solve anything, but take comfort in their presence and the fact that they are there. You are not alone.
With my subdrop sure to be just around the corner, today’s card is a reminder that when I am feeling out of sorts from the drop, you are there for me to help me through. Just your presence makes things better and eases that ache inside my soul. I need to not hold myself apart and strive instead to move in closer and let you soothe the drop and untangle those inner knots that the drop creates.
DECK USED: COSMOS TAROT AND ORACLE
#TarotForGrowthJuly Challenge Prompt
Topic: I’m struggling with self-worth.
Question: How can I be more mindful about challenging and correcting negative self-talk?
Reading Summary: Remember to look at things from another angle (Judgement) and pay attention to the fact that you really have done a lot (Ten of Pentacles) and you’re a hard worker with great deal of hard earned skill (Eight of Pentacles).
Take Away: Instead of allowing my inner narrative to have free reign, pay attention to what you hear with your ears and take that to heart. You’ve spent your life refusing to allow people’s perceptions of you matter, but those same perceptions can boost you up and create a positive narrative to help you in counteracting the negative inner dialogue you deal with on a constant basis.
Remember as well that you have created a comfortable life not just for yourself, but for L as well. You share your stability and comfort with others, and are more than capable of sustaining it going forward. The skills you have worked so hard to master, and have used to create this stability in your life, are not going to just disappear.
DECK USED: WAY OF THE PANDA TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsJul2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I feel more grounded on my life’s current path?
Reading Summary: Make sure you are getting the alone time that you need (The Hermit) and use that time to forge a new path for your inner dialogue (Knight of Swords). Keep in mind that positivity and optimism (The Star) is not a natural state for you and takes repetition and diligence (Knight of Swords again).
There is a theme of darkness and purple through each of these three cards that does not carry through the entire deck. This speaks to me of not just solitude, but peaceful solitude. This is why I indicate that the cards say that I need to use the alone time for distancing from my normal inner critic’s dialogue.
Take Away: Peaceful alone time and continued work on the optimism perspective will combine to give me an increased feeling of grounding in my life at this time. Neglecting my alone time now that I have the opportunity to get it (even if not in the same ways I could before) is detrimental and I need to make sure I’m fitting that in.
DECK USED: EVOLUTION TAROT
#OwlandBonesJuly Challenge by Owl and Bones Tarot
Question: pencil // pen // permanent marker // tattoo
Recipe For A Good Life
Pencil in the hardships.
Add strength and purpose in pen.
Write in nurturing balance in permanent marker.
And tattoo motivation and drive into your soul.
DECK USED: SLAVIC TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I think more creatively?
Reading Summary: Don’t allow (Seven of Wands) your addictions (The Devil) to get in the way of your motivation (Eight of Wands).
Take Away: Having an addictive personality is a bitch. Just sayin’. But it’s really hard sometimes to force yourself away from the stuff that feels good and you want more of. Whether that’s certain foods, or sleep, or whatever… So many things seem so innocuous but can become a mess of addiction and patterns that need to be broken so easily… so very easily.
The cards here indicate that it’s by staying on top of that addictive personality trait and making sure it’s kept in hand that allows my creativity free reign to flourish and grow.