Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and was a guided meditation that focused upon the benefits of sticking to your meditation practice rather than giving up when things don’t start changing (or getting easier) right away.
This isn’t the reason that I personally give up, it seems. The problem for me is that self destructive creature that lives in my mind, hiding quietly in the shadows seeking out the small cracks and secret openings that will allow it to slip in and wreak havoc. I know about this tendency and I struggle against it all the time, but sometimes? It manages to get its nails in deep even when I’m trying my best to not let it.
Today’s draw is the Two of Fire (Two of Wands) which is traditionally interpreted as finding direction and making plans. It’s about going after what kindles your inner spark… specifically the fact that in order to head on a journey, you need to first make a plan and choose a direction.
What stands out to me the strongest in the image of this card today is the tools set on the counter. There’s a plan here, and preparation has begun to get things done. You have your tools and you have a purpose, a direction, and a plan. But also, I note that there are no hands.
This speaks to me of a reminder that planning can only take you so far, then you have to either put your plans into action, or abandon them and walk away. I don’t want to walk away… so it’s time to start moving in the direction I’ve chosen to continue in. That is, the direction of the emotional growth I’ve been working with so far through the spring and summer months.
DECK USED: HERBCRAFTER’S TAROT
#TarotForGrowthJuly Challenge Prompt
Topic: I’m struggling to find my purpose.
Question: What are the consequences of continuing to hide from my deepest desires?
Reading Summary: 9 & 2 rx. Less connection to others (Two of Cups Rx) and less satisfaction in my successes (Nine of Pentacles Rx), as well as increased apathy and and a more vocal inner critic casting judgment upon myself (Justice).
Take Away: When you don’t take care of yourself, the scales of balance tip and the result is that you end up less healthy and less well internally too. Apathy and negative thoughts creep in to pollute your thoughts and feelings, making it harder to bond with others and connect deeply with them, as well as making it difficult to enjoy your success because you’re too focused upon what you are perceiving as your failures.
DECK USED: VELEDA WOODS TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsJul2020 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Unexpected Boon / Potential Obstacle
Take Away: The unexpected boon here is the ability to find that place of abundance regardless of the hurdles along the way. The potential obstacle is self doubt. It’s about the fact that I rarely see my path on an emotional level but rather a logical one. If I want to make sure that the emotional side of things is not an obstacle, I need to learn how to handle my emotions and use them to my advantage instead of allowing them to hold me up or drag me back.
DECK USED: HANSON ROBERTS TAROT
#OwlandBonesJuly Challenge by Owl and Bones Tarot
Topic: listen // learn // teach
Listen – The Hanged Man – Make sure I am not closing myself off to other perspectives and ideas. Sometimes when I am feeling vulnerable I struggle with staying open, but in truth… these times are the most opportune times in which to learn. It’s important to stay open so that the discomfort is something learned from rather than just something gotten through and discarded.
Learn – Seven of Cups – How to make choices instead of always trying to take on too much. This is a difficult lesson for me, and one that I am presently working very hard at. I have a habit of filling my plate too full and struggling with overwhelm as a result. Instead of allowing myself to put so much on my plate, I need to seek out ways to minimize my responsibilities and delegate.
Teach – Seven of Wands – Independence. How to stand up for what you believe in. And how to be confident in one’s beliefs and their individual uniqueness. These are things that I very much enjoy nurturing in others and hope to continue to teach other throughout my entire life. I feel that with each person I am able to help in finding their self confidence and independence, I am making the world a better place as a result.
DECK USED: TAROTBOT TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What am I passionate about?
Reading Summary: I’m all for fighting for those things that I believe in and feel are important (Five of Wands)… but I also know when it’s time to let go and move on to something better (Six of Swords) in order to protect the things that are truly near and dear to me from harm (Nine of Wands).
Take Away: The cards here indicate that what I am most passionate about are those things that are so very near and dear to me that I want to protect them, and that I am willing to abandon “the fight” of my own interests and drive in order to protect.