Today’s meditation was once again delayed until bed time. I swear to f’ck that I’m trying to fit it in. I really am. But there seems to be a serious challenge to getting those ten or fifteen minutes every.. damn.. DAY so far this week.
I think that little lizard dog thing has an eyeball on its ass. Just sayin’.
Okay so what I see in this card’s imagery is a LOT of little details. All of the cards are pretty detailed in this deck, but today I feel like every time I look away from the card and then look back, I notice another little detail that suddenly feels significant. Just as significant as the last one. All of them small like the eye looking spot on the rear of the creature at her feet. The bauble hanging from her necklace…. the fact that her necklace doesn’t go around her neck but appears to hang from her ears. The skull on her head, her navel, her tattoos, the flowers and wands she holds.
And yet it doesn’t feel cluttered. It doesn’t feel overwhelming either.
What I feel from this is that the message in today’s draw has to do with noticing the little things and appreciating them. Cherishing them. Sometimes the big picture sucks, but you can still find pleasure in the little things.
DECK USED: CIRCLE OF LIFE TAROT
#TarotForGrowthMarch Challenge Prompt
Question: Looking at the past few weeks, what may have been impeded by miscommunication?
Reading Summary: My progress moving forward into my passion (Knight of Swords) has been hampered by retreat (The Hermit) because I’ve been walking on eggshells (Six of Swords) and struggling to find balance between my personal needs and business responsibilities (Queen of Disks Rx).
Take Away: Okay so this is about the letter, and it’s about how I’ve reacted to the letter by closing myself, which has hindered my “go get ’em” forward momentum concerning my passions and ambitions. That letter caused an imbalance, and a disruption in my comfort levels which has caused some problems in a number of different areas concerning my business, my home life, and my own self care as well.
IS the letter a miscommunication, then? Am I over-reacting to it? Is it not the unreasonable demand and threat-thru-leverage that I perceived it to be? I think this might be something I need to think on.
DECK USED: LUNA SOL TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsMar2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: Where am I at physically at this time?
Reading Summary: Independence on my journey (Queen of Swords) toward “traditional exercise” (Hierophant) is holding me back. Stop ignoring the help that’s available to me (Five of Coins) and I’ll find a better way (Page of Swords) to move forward and enjoy the journey (Knight of Wands).
Take Away: So I know that I need to get to the gym and gain some weight. I know this, and yet I’ve not been able to manage it. I just have no interest or motivation towards that direction. J has offered to join me, and yet I haven’t really accepted or refused. Just… meh. The cards indicate that I need to accept and get going on this. Where I am physically is in a holding pattern… and it’s time to move past that, and accept the help I need (even if that help is just in motivation) in order to get myself back on track.
DECK USED: JONASA JAUS TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I move more into my heart space?
Reading Summary: Accept that it’s okay to be recognized for the good stuff (Six of Wands) and own that shit (The Emperor) rather than shoving it off, because by doing so it will create contentment (Nine of Cups).
Take Away: I had some really sweet things said about me today that really made it stand out to me just how differently I see myself compared to how others seem to see me. It was nice to hear, but there’s a part of me that is always reserved and holds back from absorbing praise internally when it is given. I worry that in doing so my ego will swell into something ugly and insufferable, and… often I honestly am not sure if I even deserve praise when its given as well. These cards indicate that it won’t make my ego insufferable, but will create a sense of contentment within myself that I’m currently missing.