Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and was a guided meditation with interval timer for my piriformis stretches. I can’t really remember what the guided meditation was about, even with the graphic prompt to the right. It was about mindfulness obviously, and using it to break habits or be mindful of the things you do. But honestly? I just don’t remember.
Today’s draw is the Queen of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s home life, finances, the material world, resources, or health.
What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of today’s card is that the crone is tangled in thorns. She’s clearly up to some sort of spellcraft, as she’s holding a chicken foot, but it’s the thorns that really catch my attention here today.
Those thorns bring me to thinking about a common pitfall that a lot of caretakers fall into over time, where they begin to focus so much on others and what others need that they begin to put off caring for themselves. The excuse being that everyone else needs them, so they just don’t have the time or energy for their own needs.
It’s a flawed thinking, and dangerous as well. How can you take care of others if you aren’t taking care of yourself. Without self care, there’s nothing left to give to others. This is something I myself need to hear now and then, especially concerning my business and responsibilities. That reminder is what today’s card is about.
DECK USED: BONESTONE & EARTHFLESH TAROT
#DiscordTarotolicJan2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: What is a negative thing in your life that you don’t need to stress over?
Reading Summary: The worry that fighting for what feels right , what you stand for, and what you believe in (Seven of Wands) is going to tear down everything around you (The Tower Rx) and leave you lost and alone (The Moon).
Take Away: This isn’t something that I worry about all the time, but more a worry that whispers in the back of my head now and then, especially when I step up and am in the thick of it.
It isn’t a fear that holds me back from standing up for what I believe in, but it is something I worry about. Not everyone appreciates a healthy and strong standing moral compass or those with the strength of will to stand up for what they believe in after all. And I do worry that some day I will be left… alone. An old queer dude with no friends and no loved ones left, no family and no future generations either. Will it happen? I have no idea… but it is something I find myself concerned about now and then.
The cards here are saying it’s not something I need to stress over, and to let that fear go.
DECK USED: NEON TAROT
Purefield.Healing’s Taking My Power Back Challenge Prompt
Two Cards: Where have I given my power away to avoid conflict? / Where have I given my power away to avoid standing out?
Where have I given my power away to avoid conflict?
Ten of Wands atop Four of Cups – I will hand my power, my responsibilities, and my control over to others that I trust when I am feeling overwhelmed and overburdened and it’s causing me to need to distance myself emotionally and step away. In these times, I have no choice. I need to let go in order to give myself time to breathe, center, ground, and find my balance again.
Where have I given my power away to avoid standing out?
The Hermit Rx – When I am in the middle of a self-destruct and I’m trying to retreat into myself and go into hiding. When I’ve reached that place… that mentality? It’s either drop the ball, or hand that ball over to someone that can deal with it until I’m in a better place mentally.
DECK USED: FUTURE VISION GEM TAROT
Today’s self kindness was in taking a moment to actually feel good and happy with the small chores I got done around the house instead of berating myself on all the things I haven’t gotten done. It felt good to sit down and feel like I got a few small good things done today like filling the hand soaps in the bathrooms and kitchen, refilling the shower spray bottles, etc.