Today’s meditation was skipped in favor of going out into the world to shop for a small stand-alone freezer. With three people living in this condo, and one of them (me) requiring a minimum of 5000 or more calories a day… there is just not enough room in my tiny “top of the fridge” freezer. So, I finally caved and went out and bought myself a small stand alone that doesn’t really fit in my tiny kitchen all that well, but is sure to make life a hell of a lot easier regardless.
I will do a brief meditation when I lie down to go to bed in a bit, though. So I won’t have skipped entirely.
Today’s draw is the Queen of Swords, which is traditionally interpreted as a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the areas of intellect, the mind, and communication. This often demonstrates in themes that have to do with independence and setting clear boundaries, a lack of bias, and being direct in one’s communication with others.
Okay so.. .admittedly, the first thing that stood out to me in this card’s imagery today is the spider. Not for any other reason than the fact that it looks exactly like the spider that bit Peter Parker in the 2002 Spiderman movie. I mean… seriously. It does.
Anyway. Yeah. That aside… what stands out to me most strongly in this imagery today is not the spider, but the moth. One strand… and it’s stuck. Just one strand of web, and it’s stuck in the spider’s clutches.
This feels like a build off of a reading I did yesterday that involved my mother and her machinations. It is about remembering not to be drawn into her drama and staying focused instead upon what it is I truly need to pay attention to. The message here is to pay attention and to take care not fall into old predictable patterns that I have already repeated again and again.
Although this message is brought to me through the memory of the reading about my mother, and relates well to my relationship with her… it also reaches beyond that relationship into other factors and relationships in my life…. relationships with others and relationships with myself.
I know this doesn’t seem like a particularly positive message to carry with me throughout my day, but I feel as if the effects of having heard this message will, in turn, be very positive as I will be aware of the traps I set for myself and those set for me by others, and in being warned to their arrival, have an easier time identifying them and side-stepping them.
DECK USED: FORAGER’S DAUGHTER TAROT
#TarotForGrowthMay Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I add more joy into my life?
Reading Summary: Choose a direction (Two of Wands) that allows you to celebrate more (Four of Wands) and have more carefree moments (The Fool).
Take Away: This is something I am very much trying to do with this time that I’m away from the full weight of my responsibilities and obligations. I am truly hoping to rearrange things and find a better way… a less stressful way… to fulfill my responsibilities and obligations while keeping a bit more space within my to breathe and enjoy life.
DECK USED: TARAT RAT TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsMay2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What value do I add to the lives of those around me?
Reading Summary: I show/teach people how to turn their mistakes into positives (left card)… and how do use what they have to their advantage (center card)… and how to more effectively confront (blue right card) their inner demons (orange right card).
Take Away: This is about self acceptance. It’s about finding a path that works for the individual. These cards indicate that the value that I add to others lives comes in the way that I help them find that path that is individually right for them. Whether that is through teaching them in our interactions or by leading by example.
Anyone that regularly follows my personal readings knows that I definitely do not have “it all together” and that I am a work in progress. I work to make myself a better person, and I forge the path that feels right for me, plowing the way before me one step at a time. I am flawed and, in some cases? I’m seriously fucked up. But I have to admit that it feels good to know even with all of that? I am still able to help others in finding their way.
DECK USED: DIXIT CARDS V2 QUEST EXPANSION PACK
Question: What can I do to maintain the abundance I’ve found in this time away when I return back to a ‘normal’ state?
Reading Summary: Don’t look at it as an ending (Ten of Swords), but rather a new beginning and an opportunity to do things better (Page of Wands) while taking better care of yourself (Four of Swords).
Take Away: The bare bones interpretation pretty much says it all. If I want to enjoy the abundance I’ve found in this time at home, which includes the tighter connection with loved ones and the untying of knots deep within myself that have knotted up through stress and flagellation of my inner self… then I need to look at this time as an opportunity to change things, rather than a temporary change that will “go away” when more restrictions begin to be lifted and opportunities return to delve back into my responsibilities and obligations.
DECK USED: I TAROCCHI VISCONTI SFORZA PICCOLO
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: When are my feelings discombobulated?
Reading Summary: When I am at a place where I need to begin taking steps to start anew (Page of Pentacles), and yet I feel as if I’m still in the middle of bleeding out from my previous experiences (Ten of Swords) and not getting the support and encouragement I need (Six of Wands Rx).
Take Away: When life has kicked you in the nuts and you’re on the floor recovering from the blow, it’s hard to get your ass up and learn to walk and talk again and do things better the second time around. It helps to have someone there saying “come on, get up”. Someone to cheer you on and let you know that you’re not alone.
When that someone isn’t there? Getting up is much harder and the emotions can have a tendency at those times to tie themselves up in knots of self pity and loneliness.
DECK USED: EMBROIDERED FOREST TAROT