Today’s meditation was was just over ten minutes long and was essentially a session on energy expansion, although it was not labeled as such. It was a really pleasant experience, and similar to something I do regularly just to “stretch” a bit internally.
Essentially, the guided meditation walked you through feeling your “personal space” that surrounds you, then expanding that perception outward a few feet, and then to the room, and then beyond the room. In my case, probably because I project so strongly, the stretch outward in this way is not just receptive but also projects my energy out much like a tree stretching out its branches and roots
The meditation then walked you back through pulling your sense and energy back in again before giving a little talk about how it is important to take time now and then to allow yourself some space to just be and feel.
Today’s draw is the Seven of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of hard work and sustainable results in the area of one’s finances, resources, health, home, and the physical / material world at large.
What stands out most strongly to me today in this image ins the lush berries produced by the bushes, and the shovel. These things both are a clear representation to me of the traditional meaning of this card. The shovel speaks to me of hard work. Whereas the berries speak to me of long term successes, as it takes time for berries to grow and ripen. First the plant must flourish and then flowers must bloom. And then only once it has reached that point do berries start to appear as the flowers lose their petals and their centers begin to swell and plump.
The message here is that success takes time… and hard work. Patience is important.
Patience is not really one of my strong suits when it comes to my pursuits and passions, but I do understand it, and it speaks to me strongest when represented in the form of plants bearing fruit. The cards are letting me know that just because I’ve slowed down a bit… and just because my business is going into an anticipated lull now that Mothers Day is over… I’m still progressing. I will continue to progress.
DECK USED: MARUCO ANIMAL TAROT
Intuitive Interpretation: Right… so the increased libido is about the emotional growth I am going through and has to do with finding an outlet while I adjust to this new level of emotions I’m feeling. The combination of the rainbow in the Lizard card and the “rainbow” of sunset/sunrise colors behind the Pegasus in the Horse card indicates that the spike is temporary and to ride it out and enjoy it (Pegasus with wings upraised).
The color combination between the center cards speaks of my inner self seeking a safe way (Seven of Branches) to express this newness in the level of emotions I’m experiencing (Ace of Shells). The far left card and far right cards are also connected through color correlations, and indicate that I am experiencing things from a new perspective (Master of Suspension) and seeking a way forward that will not suppress my growth (Spirit of Freedom). There is also a color match between two right cards that refers to feeling that this new level of emotion and my experience of it (Ace of Shells) feels a bit out of control and the sex is serving as an outlet for my cup that is running over at the moment (Spirit of Freedom).
Take Away: Essentially my libido has kicked into high gear in an effort to help find an outlet for the new level of emotions I’m experiencing. As I struggle with finding balance, my libido is allowing the overflowing contents of my “cup of emotions” to splash over the rim of the cup in a safe and secure manner (into your hands). The cards indicate that this is temporary, but to enjoy it while it lasts.
DECK USED: ANIMAL WISDOM TAROT
Question: What is the biggest challenge for me in our recent Global situation?
Reading Summary: Struggles with patience and restraint (Temperance) creating a situation where I am too much in my head (King of Swords) without any kindness or understanding (Queen of Swords).
Take Away: I wonder if this is why I’ve been sleeping so much lately. It sort of serves as an escape, both from the lack of alone time and also from the constant nagging bullshit I have going on in my head right now that teeters between “you’re not doing enough” and “you’re fucking up”. I feel like I have both too much time on my hands and yet not enough time… at the same time. It’s very confusing and I know it has a lot to do with those self recriminations and lack of understanding directed toward myself in relation to the current situation.
DECK USED: STAR SPINNER TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What scares me about relationships?
Reading Summary: All the work going to waste (Eight of Pentacles) and ending up alone (Nine of Pentacles) with hard choices and no one to help with them (Two of Swords).
Take Away: The ending. What scares me about relationships is the ending. I really struggle to foster and nourish my relationships with others. The connections, the communication, the time spent with others… sometimes it feels not just like a lot of hard work, but like I’m tiptoeing through a mine field and any wrong step will blow the whole thing up in my face.
I see other people in their friendships and relationships, and it looks so easy and natural. This has never been the case for me.
This doesn’t keep me from being myself, but it does make the entire process feel a bit arduous. At the same time? I value those people in my life, so the work is worth it. But…. it also gives breed to the fear of stepping on one of those mines and the whole thing ending up for naught.
DECK USED: MYSTIC FAERIE TAROT