Today’s meditation was just under ten minutes long and was a guided meditation that I had saved on my phone from the Calm app that is from last winter. Along with the guided meditation, I included an interval timer for my piriformis stretches.
I really liked this meditation the first time I did it, and so I decided to do it again. The topic of today’s meditation was about silence and stillness, and how even when we don’t feel like meditation does anything for us, it quietly works behind the scenes and makes changes in not just how we see and deal with life, but also with our health.
This is something that I relate to a lot. When I do my meditation, whether it’s hit-or-miss or done regularly every day, I don’t really feel a difference in myself. I don’t feel any different, or see any differences just on the surface level. But other people notice the differences. They notice I am a bit more relaxed and a bit less high strung. They notice that I smile more and react more noticeably to music and songs that I enjoy. And my Fitbit notices as well, for doing meditation regularly significantly changes my resting heart rate by over ten bpm. I have a feeling that if I had a blood pressure cuff, that I would see a noticeable difference there as well.
Today’s draw is the Three of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of heartbreak, disappointments, and hurt feelings. The key to remember in this card is that it is in the Swords suit, which is about the mind. We are not in the Cups suit. These emotions are about being stuck in your head, they are produced by the thoughts, opinions, and inner narrative going on up in the mind. Thus, they live in the Swords suit instead of in the Cups.
The thing is? People fear this card regardless of where the pain comes from. This is because people fear pain. Whether it’s created from out mind or not, it hurts… and that is (understandably) something that can instill fear.
The reminder here is about this card, and about life in general. It’s about realizing pain is coming, seeing or feeling a warning of what’s to come… and not flinching or shirking away from it. It’s about understanding and accepting pain, and separating yourself from it internally so that you do not lash out at others and spread that pain onward. Smiles are not the only thing that can be contagious, and it’s important to make sure that we spread love; not pain and not fear.
DECK USED: QUEER WITCH TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS
The Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Prompt
Question: How can I deepen my connection with my intuition?
Reading Summary: Lean into grounded empathy and nurturing (The Empress) instead of aggression (Seven of Sticks). Be generous in sharing your time and attention with others you connect strongly with (Six of Daisies atop Two of Tulips).
Take Away: Pause and pick your battles. Make sure what you’re fighting for is really worth it, and if it really needs that rise of aggression that comes to “save the day”. Would empathy and understanding work better? Would working to find common ground and making a connection be a better path? Removing aggression from the equation will help in that intuitive connection, as you will no longer be stepping into habitual behavior.
DECK USED: RABBIT TAROT
#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: What do you need to focus on for self-care for this full moon?
Take Away: This is something that I have been doing over the past month or so, the slowing down on those addictions that tap into my finances. With this full moon we are looking at a lot of things that need to be paid for. Insurance, the accountant, more than likely the IRS, etc. Extra expenditures that I don’t usually need to deal with on the regular.
This extra precaution right now is necessary, but temporary and will ease off as the month moves closer to the new moon in a couple of weeks.
DECK USED: QUEER WITCH TAROT
I tried to give myself plenty of small breaks today without it getting to a point where it negatively affected my work or my bed time. I think I did pretty good.