Do The Thing

Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and was more of a quiet reflection time with measured breathing and piriformis stretching than the guided meditations that I’m used to.   That’s because I ran across this little graphic (to the right) and it really hit home on me today.

Resonating as it did, I decided to spend my meditation thinking on it, reflecting about what it had to say, and taking the advice given there to heart.  I know this advice is good, as it’s something that the cards have said to me many times.  Especially during recovery from my MDEs when I feel like I should be recovering faster, and yet the lingering traces seem to stretch on and on far longer than I’ve anticipated they might.

Inspiration Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is is the High Priestess card, which is traditionally about hidden knowledge and secret wisdom. It’s about the subconscious and an understanding of these quiet, secret places that we all have within us, and what lies within those places.  The High Priestess is about finding those places, about rousing one’s intuition, and reading between the lines.

There is an element of self love in the depiction of this particular High Priestess.  It lies within her posture and the tilt of her hand, the position of her hands, the eyes that lie closed instead of open indicating looking inward.

The addition of the Thera-Pets card indicates an experience earlier today when one of my clients reached out for a reading.  I was feeling a little unsure of myself as I’ve been feeling quite tender the last couple of days. That sensation of tender vulnerability can sometimes make reading for others difficult.   I did warn them of this prior to the reading, and they were good with going ahead anyway, though.

The reading went well and it turns out I really had nothing to worry about.  Sometimes?  You just have to do the thing and trust that it’s going to work out.

DECK USED:  INSPIRATION TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

The Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Prompt
Question:
How can I better ground myself at this time?

Petrak Tarot

Reading Summary: There is a color progression between these three cards that indicates how they should be red.  The depth of red in the Knight of Wands corresponds to the deep red in the lower half of the Six of Discs.  The connection here threads through the center Five of swords, but only barely.  The connection is also present between the center Five of Swords and the end Six of Discs through the depth of blue, also, the connection between the center card and the Knight of Wands is minimal.

What these connections say is that I need to make sure that I’m rooting myself in the Red.  Rooting myself, therefore, in the things that “light my fire” and spark my enthusiasm.  The blue is shared only at the top of all three cards.  The location of the blue hues combined with their depth speaks of the mind.  The Five of Swords touching upon the Six of Discs within the mind’s arena is about pulling back on the battle to reason my way out of doing the stuff that is good for me… avoiding being generous with myself.

Take Away:  The cards here are speaking about my time out in nature either hiking or forest bathing.  I have a great deal of pleasure and enthusiasm for this, and it helps me immensely in staying balanced and grounded.  But I find myself from time to time forcing myself to not do the things that help me feel better.  This is a self destructive urge manifesting into reluctance for self care… and the encouragement  here is to DO THE THING.  Be generous to myself and get my ass out there.

DECK USED:  PETRAK TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Question
: What piece of advice is needed right now to help you achieve your dreams?

Inspiration TarotReading Summary:  When uncertainty clouds your view (The Moon… eyes closed) make sure that you are tapping into your inner generosity (Six of Pentacles) and giving yourself room to ground, stabilize, and provide yourself the nurturing nourishment you need (Queen of Pentacles).  Also, take time to talk to Z (Six of Pentacles beside Queen of Pentacles)

Take Away: The message in these cards is twofold.  Both relate to situations and instances when I’m feeling the need to shirk away from confusion and feeling particularly uncomfortable with “being in the dark”.

During these times, these cards indicate that I need to pause and remember that it’s okay to be afraid and give myself the space, self care, and self kindness needed to get through these situations.

Secondly, this specific combination of cards (the Six of Pentacles combined with the Queen of Pentacles) is Z.  The cards here are reminding me that speaking to Z during these times can be infinitely beneficial.

DECK USED:  INSPIRATION TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I told Gideon about feeling tender the last couple of days.  I really don’t want him thinking I’m not interested in playing both the sets of chars that we made.  I like them both a lot.  I just have been feeling a bit tender and I guess that’s making me lean more towards the nurturing dynamic right now in play.

Morning Bonus Read – Sacral Connections

Future Ancestor Tarot

My sacral center energy right now.

Two of Needles – A bit conflicted.  This isn’t really surprising considering that it’s now Wednesday and you’re currently creeping towards the time when you’ll need to go back to work. It’s funny in a way, because when you started doing these vacations last year, you couldn’t wait to leap back in to work. This time though? You’re feeling a bit of conflict and resistance.

Tension I’m currently holding in this area.

Five of Cups – Too much time spent focusing on what’s not working, and not enough effort spent focusing on what is. There’s lots of positive things to focus on.  You need to start turning your attention in that direction instead of allowing those things that didn’t work to continue to bug you.

How can I release this tension?

Eight of Cups – Move on.  Focus on what you can do different and where you can go from here. You learn from your mistakes and what doesn’t work.  These moments of failure are guideposts for adapting and moving forward.  Don’t look at them as anything else.

Emotions I repress that I need to allow myself to feel.

Listener of Needles – Emotions related to my mother.  This is not something I’m entirely comfortable with delving into. The whole dealing with my mother or my emotions concerning her is a bit of a sensitive subject. The shift in our relationship that happened when my father passed and I realized just what kind of person she is beneath the facade she prefers to present to both her children and the world… It has become awkward.  And these negative emotions that the shift has inspired don’t have anywhere to really go.

The outcome of allowing myself to feel.

Explorer of Needles – Movement instead of stagnancy. New perspectives, and perhaps a new way to look at my mother and our relationship. Essentially it would allow me to move forward emotionally in this area of things instead of stewing in the discomfort of where we currently stand.

How can I become better connected to my emotions?

The Lovers – Continue focusing on making good decisions that foster that connection.  Over the past year you have been working on connecting more to your emotions and finding a better balance. You need to continue to take each choice and change of direction you come upon, and weigh it carefully against what you want to accomplish with your emotional growth before coming to a decision.

DECK USED:  FUTURE ANCESTOR TAROT