Endings Sometimes Hurt

Today’s meditation was skipped because I couldn’t convince anyone (even the cat) to leave me alone.  Every time I tried to get a few minutes of peace, someone was popping in to ask a question, lick my ears, or complain about something. I finally just gave up and said fuck it.

My Garden Deck and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Ten of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of painful endings, coming to the end of a painful or uncomfortable journey, and taking a pause to acknowledge that you’ve lost and then pick yourself up and try again.

It’s the latter that I see represented here in this particular imagery, with the person that lies beneath the pinning tips of the sword also represented walking away from that experience.  It is a reminder that bad shit happens, but the strong carry on from it and continue moving forward.

Combined with the Thera-Pets card for today, the message that I see here in today’s cards is that sometimes endings hurt.  Sometimes?  They really hurt.  But there’s a light at the end of the tunnel of all that pain if you just hold on and keep your focus trained ahead.   Take a breath, learn what you can from the experience, and carry the knowledge forward as you keep going and move beyond the ending and the pain.


The #httSelfImprovementTarotChallenge Prompt
: What lights my soul on fire?

Future Ancestor Tarot

Reading Summary: Creating opportunities (Two of Seeds) for others to grow and manifest what is right for them in their lives (Eight of Cups). In this endeavor there is an element of nurturing energy that I put towards these things as I give gentle nudges to help people to grow and make the choices that are best for them (Listener of Seeds).

Take Away: I was actually surprised to see this come up as the answer to this question.  There are a few different things I thought might come up, but this wasn’t at the top of the list.  Not that I don’t take a great deal of joy in helping others in this manner, as I absolutely do and it’s a part of the reason that I do tarot readings for others.  It brings me a great deal of joy to help people find the path that’s right for them. 


#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
: Where in your life do you need to direct more gratitude?

My Garden DeckReading Summary: It’s the ones around you that you hold dear (Two of Cups) that help create the security and stability of your home life (Ten of Coins) and encourage you foster connections with not just them but the world around you as well (The Star).

Take Away:  I need to remember and acknowledge more often that I am not an island unto myself.  The people in my life are my support system, my encouragement, my cheerleaders, and often my inspiration. 

I often take these people for granted.  Perhaps we all do from time to time.  Hopefully not so much that they feel neglected, but I’m sure that they could absolutely benefit from me directing a bit more gratitude their way.


Daily Self Kindness

Honestly, after I passed out at the grocery store, I wasn’t feeling completely up to RP.  I’m glad that I did it anyway though, as it helped me find my center again and get comfortable in my own skin after the glucagon shot.

Morning Bonus Read – Monthly Key Spread

Little Soul's Party Lenormand

Key to Your Heart: What will Guide you to make decisions that are aligned with your heart and your truths this month?

The House – When making decisions this week, make sure to keep in mind the safety, security, and above all else, stability, of home and how those decisions you make may affect and influence that stability.

Anchor: What will ground you in the face of anxiety, stress, overwhelm, and existential dread in general?

The Heart – Reach out to those closest to you for support when feelings of anxiety and stress come upon you.  They are there to give you that support, to love you and help you when you need it.  It is something they want to do, so reach out to them and let them.

Star Wand: What accelerates your magic, creativity, and manifestation powers?

The Fox  – A quick and clever mind will help accelerate your inner spark and those things that grow from it.  Your magic, creativity, and skills at manifestation are all a part of that spark, and that spark feeds off of your clever mind full of ideas, strategy, and cunning.

Blessings from the Stars: The Universe has got your back – how will you be supported this month?

The Key – Opportunities abound if you’re paying attention. This month the universe will be throwing opportunities at you that all have the potential to lead to success.  They key is paying attention and grabbing hold when they manifest in front of you. 

One Trick Up Your Sleeve: A life saving idea or inspiration for any unexpected challenge or difficult moments?

The Cavalier – You have the energy and enthusiasm to get things done and when things challenge you or stand in your way you’re more than capable of powering through to get things started.  Don’t allow unexpected challenges or moments of difficulty to stand in your way.

Emergence Pt 1: What is emerging within you / within your reality right now?

The Clouds – Watch out for self doubt encroaching in and confusion.  Sometimes, the ground shifts under your feet unexpectedly and you’re left trying to catch your balance. Keep in mind that if you follow your intuition and inner compass, even those moments in the fog of uncertainty will pass without any real damage done.

Emergence Pt 2: What are you expanding towards?

The Garden – The last factor of life to fall back into balance after the MDE is your social life.  This month you begin to expand in that direction, and in doing so, complete the healing journey out of the dark pit of your depression.