Today’s meditation was a bit different than normal because I felt like a change. Instead of doing the next installment of the mantra meditation from the Oak app, I did an eighteen minute meditation using the water drops music that I enjoy and just allowing myself to drift.
While doing the meditation, I used the writing on the graphic to the right to give myself a bit of focus, allowing each drop of water to be a punctuation point on the saying and draw the words a bit deeper and deeper.
Today’s draw is the Five of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of dissatisfaction, pessimism, and the tendency to only see failure and discouragement instead of looking at the positive side of things.
What I see in the image here goes along those lines, in that what I see here is frustration caused by seeing only the struggle and trials of a situation instead of what within that situation is still salvageable.
I’ve had a long few days trying to get myself together after confronting my anxiety over the border thing and playing catch up. The whole stress and distraction sort of took over my life for a couple of days and now I feel like I’ve fallen behind on so much. Not just blog posts, but eating healthy and taking my vitamins, a large variety of things sort of “fell off the rails” for a few days.
Combined with the Thera-Pets card for today, the message in today’s card is that even when things feel like they’re falling apart, there’s still some good in the situation somewhere. Take a breath and remember that this moment isn’t the end of the world, it’s just a moment of frustration and struggle. It will pass, and you’ll still be standing at the end of it all.
DECK USED: NOT SO MYSTICAL TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS
LionHart’s Whispering Woods Tarot Challenge Prompt
Question: What does The Universe want me to create for myself right now?
Reading Summary: Stop forcing yourself to work so damned hard (Eight of Pentacles) and create balance (Justice) by creating more happy memories with L and Z (Six of Cups).
Take Away: Introducing balance through being kind to myself is so hard for me, but that is essentially what is being requested of me here. I need to spend more time with Z and L. Time that isn’t saturated in work and the business, but is about just enjoying each other’s company. The cards here indicating that by neglecting these opportunities by focusing too much on work, I am missing out on something healing and balancing.
DECK USED: CAT-ROT TAROT 2020 EDITION
Seven of Pentacles – Stop worrying so much about how long things are going to take and just allow them to develop at their own pace. Impatience is not going to work at making things move any faster.
What do I need to let go of to lighten my heart?
Six of Wands – Remember not to concern yourself too much about other’s expectations. It’s not their judgements that matter, it’s your own. If you focus on making yourself happy, they’ll be happy, because you’re your harshest judge and will exceed other’s expectations just to meet those you hold for yourself anyway.
What do I need to let go of to free my creative spark?
The Empress – Ground more and be kinder to yourself. Stop putting off the self care needs that you should be focusing on and doing. Ignoring your needs and self care will hold you back from a full recovery as you climb, slowing you down and causing you to spend less time without the enthusiasm that feeds your creative spark.
DECK USED: NOT SO MYSTICAL TAROT
I spent nearly the whole day playing with Gideon today and it was… so fucking amazing.