A Glimmer of Imagination

Today’s meditation was skipped because I fell asleep and took a nap instead.  Not that I meant to, but that’s what ended up happening.

Tarot Art Nouveau and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Ace of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of the seed of new beginnings in the area of one’s intellect, logic, thought, and communication. This can often present in themes that have to do with new ideas, new was of communicating with others, new educational pursuits, etc.

In the imagery here, a man falls from the sky as the night looks on and watches him fall.  Wind swirls wildly about and perhaps it will pick the man that falls up and toss him around like a kite, giving him a chance to fly instead of plummet to the earth.

Sometimes new ideas need a bit of imagination mixed in to make them just right, and that’s the message I get from the imagery in this card today. Combined with the Thera-Pets card, this is a reminder that although I may not be feeling particularly imaginative or inventive at the moment, just a little glimmer of imagination showing through now and then is enough.  It’s still progress out of the pit… and even the smallest progress will keep me from becoming stagnant in my recovery.


The Marching Into Darkness Tarot Challenge Prompt
: Thinking back to times when I had a good thing but self-sabotaged, what kept me from embracing & enjoying these times?

Tarot of the Sevenfold Mystery

Reading Summary: Thinking that I can handle (Hermes – The Magician) much more than I can, and ending up juggling (Two of Pentacles) too much, then having to cut back when things get out of hand (Eight of Wands).

Take Away:  This is about my tendency to overfill my plate with responsibilities, when I am feeling good and in control.  Then something happens that leaves me having to cut back on things, drop the ball on others, etc. This tendency creates a cycle of self sabotage where I end up with a crapload of things unfinished and piling up in the background, or abandoned entirely.


#DiscordTarotolicsMar2021 Challenge Prompt
: What makes me unique?

Tarot Art NouveauReading Summary: Taking my mothers influence (Three of Swords) and the qualities that I share with her (Queen of Swords Rx), and turning into into something positive (Nine of Pentacles).

Take Away: I would say that this is not the only thing that makes me unique, but rather is one of a variety of different things.   The thing is though, that this specific example does outline a quality of independence that I have always possessed.

I do things my way and make them work for me, and turn them into something positive that I can look back on and be grateful for.  I do this again and again, using my disappointment in my mother to take the qualities I share with her and turn them into something better.


#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How am I blocking my intuition?

Tarot of the Sevenfold Mystery

Reading Summary: You spend too much time worrying about becoming your mother, and not enough time spent grounding.

Take Away:  This is funny because the cards also mentioned this exact topic above in the previous reading. It’s about spending too much time focusing on uncertainty and instability, though.  It’s about making sure that I focus on making sure my own life is stable and secure instead of worrying about what has been left behind. That energy could be placed elsewhere to better use.


Daily Self Kindness

I napped.  Okay so I nap a few times a week but this was a really good nap. And earlier than normal, so I also got to spend extra time with Gideon as well.

Morning Bonus Read – The Guides

1870 Cartes a Jouer du Belles Cartes LtdWhat are my guides most proud of me for at this time?
Seven of Hearts, Queen of Diamonds, Seven of Spades

They are proud of me for prioritizing finding a nurturing balance despite my constant struggle to downgrade how much responsibility I’m putting on my plate and my feeling as if I’m doing something wrong when I take time for self care and rest.

How can I continue to garner that pride?
Jack of Diamonds

Slow and steady but always forward.  It’s important to look for new ways to look at and put into action these new priorities.  Don’t just set them on the back burner or tuck them in a corner to think about or worry about later.  Keep them at the forefront even when progress is slow.

What advice do they have for me emotionally?
Two of Hearts

Connecting with others will help in continuing to lift me up and keep me balanced.  Don’t allow myself to close myself off to others and the emotional support that they have to offer.  Each of the people in your life that makes up your support system has their unique skills and influences that can benefit you just as yours benefit them in turn.

What advice do they have for me mentally?
Three of Spades

Don’t allow your depression to suck you backward. You’re making progress, moving away from the darkness and pain of the pit you’d slid into.  Don’t look back.

What advice do they have for me physically?
Ace of Spades

Be open to new ideas on how to incorporate activity into your life.  The whole knife-through-the-foot thing has slowed you down and will keep you from doing the harder trails and more intensive hiking you’re used to, but that doesn’t mean you can’t go out on easy paths and spend time communing with nature in these more “beginner” ways while you heal.