Today’s meditation was just over fifteen minutes long and focused upon living in the present moment. The past is gone to the unsubstantiality of memory, and the future has yet to become…. so the point of the meditation’s focus was that the present moment is all that we really have that is solid and real and that we can hold onto.
It is a reminder to stay present and not get carried away by what was or what could be, but to enjoy what you have in the now. Honestly? This was a good reminder for me, and I think would be a good reminder for a lot of people during this time.
How many have felt over worked to the point they dreamed of having some time off? How many have felt so overwhelmed by social obligations that they just want to spend some time at home chilling and alone? And yet, here it is. Here we all have that chance and so many feel they can’t handle it and fuss and fight under the restrictions of some self-isolation. Maybe this is an opportunity to relax and recover and restore ourselves that we will regret not taking once life is returning to the hectic juggling of responsibilities we’ll all eventually have to return to.
Today’s draw is the Queen of Wands (honestly? The wands in this deck remind me far more of spears than wands) which is a representation of a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s passions, drive, ambitions, and (in my case) creative spark. This often translates into themes that have to do with courage, ownership of one’s passions, confidence, and determination in the areas of the wand suit, including fostering the growth of those themes in others.
What stands out to me in this card today, though, is a variety of aspects including the submerged bird being held beneath the water by the woman that sits on it, and the little star being lowered into the bird’s mouth. This speaks to me of that whole “I hurt you because I love you” mentality. You know, like forcing a child to take their meds even if they fight and scream about it.
Today’s message is about doing my self care even when I’m not enthused about it. I need to take care of myself as I would someone else that I love, and that means “taking my medicine” even when I don’t want to. My efforts for self-care are a type of medicine and I need to make it happen even when I feel unmotivated towards doing those things. Every time I am in the moment of doing them or have finished one of them, I’m always pleasantly surprised that I liked it more than I thought I would or that it was far easier than I thought it would be. My mind blows up what needs done until it’s some huge task when really, they aren’t that huge at all… they’re just blown out of proportion. So stop avoiding. Stop procrastinating. It’s time to start doing my self-care tasks whether I’m up for it or not.
DECK USED: HUSH TAROT
#TarotForGrowthMarch Challenge Prompt
Question: What shadows are being illuminated at this time?
Intuitive Read: Just how much I need myself some alone time.
Take Away: So much time with others has made it clear just how much I need alone time now and then. Fortunately I am getting some in the morning when I’m going to the farm to work, and my work at the farm itself is also quite solitary most of the time. It’s not the amount of alone time that I’m used to, but it definitely helps. L and Z are also being very respectful of my need for time to do my yoga/physio and meditation and give me space for those moments as well. That said? All the social contact is a bit exhausting and I’m longing for that more extensive alone time I’m accustomed to.
DECK USED: TAROT OF THE GOLDEN WHEEL
#DiscordTarotholicsMar2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: Do Spread #2
What voice do I need to bring forward within myself to combat my self abuse?
Reading Summary: The butterfly in the first two cards speaks about gentle change and the synchronicity of colors and grass in contrast to the first card speaks of a transition from the theme of the first card through the second card and into the third card.
Take Away: It’s time to move away from feeling all tense and defensive and wildly protective of those things I’ve worked so hard for but cannot actually control the outcome of right now. Lean into my inner strengths as well and use them to prepare for what’s to come rather than trying to hold onto control that has already slipped from my grasp. This isn’t an abrupt change but more of a gentle transition that involves shifting how I see things and think about them.
DECK USED: WHISPERING SPIRITS TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: Can you trust not to look at the “little white book”?
Reading Summary: During times of stress and anxiety (Nine of Athames), this is when the temptation to look at books is most strong. But, I am more likely to depend on my foundational education (Queen of Athames) and trust in my own capabilities (The World Tree) over the temptation of looking in a book (The Sidhe).
Take Away: I already knew the answer to this but decided to see what the cards had to say anyway. The response from the cards is spot on. I don’t really use the little white books anymore. Sometimes I will read them when a deck first comes into my collection just to see if there is a different perspective, neat stories, or artist’s input to consider. But when it comes to actually interpreting what the cards have to say in a reading, my first go-to is intuitive interpretation off imagery, and my second is my foundational knowledge about the cards and their meanings.
That said? I do have a hard time coming up with words now and then… and in those times an online thesaurus is usually my friend, because if I can find a word close in meaning to the word I want, a thesaurus can then get me there when my mind is drawing a blank or the word is on the “tip of my tongue” but refuses to fully surface from my brain.
DECK USED: GREEN WITCH TAROT