Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and took place in the car while J was driving. Unfortunately, it wasn’t particularly relaxing or rejuvenating. I’ll have to give it another shot before bed tonight.
Today’s draw is the Ten of Cups, which is traditionally read as an indication of completion past contentment in the area of one’s emotions, creativity, relationships, and intuition. This often translates into themes that deal with relationship bliss, harmony with others, an alignment of values, and an even flow of abundance in the meeting of everyone’s emotional needs.
What I see here is reassurance, though. Today has been a slow crawl through the cloying sludgy quagmire of existential quicksand. Every fucking thing I’ve tried to do today has taken three times as long as it should have. Packaging orders, drawing my cards, taking a shower… even making a sandwich. I don’t know how or why this has been the case. If I didn’t know better? I’d think I had missed my meds, but I just checked last night and I have not missed any.
The appearance of the Ten of Cups in today’s draw is a reassurance that it’s not always like this. It’s just not. Today was an aberrant fluke, and not the norm. So take a deep breath and remember that things usually go much smoother and are much more harmonious.
DECK USED: CIRCLE OF LIFE TAROT
#TarotForGrowthMarch Challenge Prompt
Question: How is the growing lunar energy manifesting in my life?
Reading Summary: I’m beginning to see the light (Four of Wands) at the end of the long trek through this winter’s fog (Five of Cups) and just need to remain patient with the process (Temperance).
Take Away: Lots of reminders this week to foster patience with myself. It’s a good reminder, though, and one that I need pretty regularly, so I suppose it’s not that big of a surprise. After so long in the fog and in the effort to find a path out of it and back to a better place mentally and emotionally, I’ve recently begun to identify some progress. Small at it is, it’s encouraging, and the growing lunar energy will assist in this effort and my progress, as long as I remember to not push.
DECK USED: REIGNING ROUGE TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsMar2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What would be a better option or path? (Built off yesterday’s cards.)
Reading Summary: Accept that I have the tools (Magician) I need to protect what’s important to me (Four of Coins) without going overboard. It’s okay to take some time for self reflection (Hermit), but don’t lose sight of what you’re truly after (Judgement).
Take Away: When I’m feeling vulnerable, I have a habit of erecting barriers and perpetuating self abuse (not physical but mental/emotional). There are better ways to accept that I need to take things slow, including accepting I’m capable and making sure I stay in touch with myself and my goals.
DECK USED: LAW OF ATTRACTION TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How am I blocking my intuition?
Reading Summary: I want to go go go (Three of Wands) when instead I need to be seeking a more stable pragmatic approach (Queen of Swords) and grounded energy for myself (Four of Pentacles). Only with a good foundation can you successfully charge forward toward your dreams (Knight of Wands).
Take Away: So… yeah. This is yet another reminder about where I am in emerging from the fog I’ve been dealing with over the last few months. As I emerge my intuition will grow and flex, stretching out of that fog along with the rest of me. But if I allow my tendency to push and rush, this isn’t going to work and it will hinder my progress rather than help.
DECK USED: ANIMAL TOTEM TAROT