The Shadowed Path

Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and focused on dealing with other’s anger, criticism and other negativity.  It spoke of using labeling to “disconnect” from the influence of other’s negativity.   This is something that I find I do naturally, probably because of my father and what I went through with him while growing up.

What I’ve found, though, is that as you have woken up my emotions and torn down my walls, I do find myself absorbing more of that crap when it’s directed my way than I used to.  Or rather, I have to consciously make the choice to disconnect rather than doing it automatically.  It’s a drawback of those lowered walls that I’m not entirely thrilled about, but the strengthened connection with you and enhanced intuition and clairvoyance all make it worth it, I think.

Side Note:  The last two day’s missing posts are a very CLEAR lesson for me that I cannot put off doing my morning routine (devotional, meditation, card draw) for later in the day.  It doesn’t work… and it doesn’t get done, no matter my good intentions to the contrary.

The Moon - Ostara Tarot Today’s draw is The Moon card of the Major Arcana, which speaks to me of bravery in moments of uncertainty.   The moon is full of shadows, illusion, and uncertainty.  It’s hard to see what’s ahead, and even harder to see through the shadows to identify what works there.

This can cause paralysis and anxiety, which is a problem. But, what the imagery in this card says to me is that even in these times of uncertainty, its important to keep your chin up and to stay in touch with your values.  Life’s not always easy and the path forward isn’t always clear, but if you stay in touch with that inner compass  and keep your head high, you will pull through those times.

With the holiday rush now starting to slow and life at the cusp of returning to normal, it’s a good reminder, as that transition is a difficult one for me and can make me feel both uncertain and adrift.

DECK USED:  OSTARA TAROT

Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember

Question for 17th: Where did I focus the bulk of my energy this year?
Question for 18th: What happened as a result of that?

Universal Fantasy Tarot Reading Summary:  I have been getting the Ace of Pentacles/Queen of Cups combo a LOT lately.   Just making a note of it.

Working on new threads of income in my business (Ace of Pentacles), discovering that new depth of emotion that has been awakening (Queen of Cups), and upping my spiritual practices as well as exploring further development of my intuition, clairsentience, mediumship (The High Priestess).

Resulting in an overburdening of doing too much at once (Ten of Wands) which makes the world feel like it’s tipped on its axis (The Tower), and a need to find a better way of doing things (Six of Swords).

Take Away:  As I seek to find a balance between work and self-care (which includes time for self and for self-focused pursuits), things have come to a “something’s got to give” point.  For so many years I have essentially filled my life with work.  Even my creativity is work, as I’ve turned my creative interests into my business.  Add on top of that running the business as its own task, and my other part time jobs, etc…. it’s a lot.  And then I’m adding my personal stuff on top of that now.

That “something that’s gotta give” has to do with how much I feel I can put on my plate as once.  And, the lion’s share of what is on my plate has to do with the business.  I have a plan to restructure how I work concerning the business, that will hopefully ease that overburdening.

DECK USED:  UNIVERSAL FANTASY TAROT

 

One thought on “The Shadowed Path

  1. I can understand that opening up to your emotions, allowing them to effect you and be a part of your life can be hard at times, especially when the more negative aspects come into play. And where there is life and people in general, there are bound to be some bumps along the way and some negativity. That said, without that negativity and the harsher aspects of life, you couldn’t possibly enjoy the POSITIVE and good things as much. There is no light without the dark, there is no good without the bad. The negatives just help you appreciate the good things a little more.

    Hiding from your emotions, building those walls to hide behind…these were necessary defense mechanisms for you your entire life and it became comfortable just not to feel, not to recognize and absorb those feelings, but that is a very unhealthy practice, hm? And it is a defense mechanism that you might at times miss, but you don’t NEED them anymore. You are strong, you are intelligent, you are resilient. You are an amazing man and part of that is because of your emotions, both the good and the bad. I for one am very glad I was able to tear down those walls and introduce you to emotions that were not negative but positive, to help you to grow with those emotions and the doors they have opened. You are a much more well rounded and balanced person now, believe it or not. You don’t hide behind the walls but instead stand strong….or come and curl up in my arms and let me help protect you from the ugly things. Help you get through them one day at a time.

    I love you, my angel. Always.

    And I think your goals of restructuring your business aspects is a very good thing. Something you have needed to do for a long time now instead of that constant push push push trying to fit EVERYTHING in at once. Balance my love, it makes everything better.
    You’re in the home stretch now babe, just a few more days of crazy and then you’re all mine again.

    I love you. Always, man.

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