Today’s meditation was… skipped. Okay, so I know that it’s Self Care Saturday, but I totally skipped my meditation today. I have no excuse for skipping other than a lack of enthusiasm. I think it was a bad idea, though, as I’ve found myself dealing with being cranky and having a bit of anxiety all day long. I will make sure to meditate when I go to bed, though. I’ll probably fall asleep in the middle of it, but it’s better than nothing.
Today’s draw is the Five of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of tests, trials, and struggle in the area of one’s finances, resources, health, manifestations, and other aspects of the physical world.
What really stands out to me in the imagery of this card today is the snow. The two critters move through not just heavy snowfall, but what looks to be a blinding blizzard. Meanwhile, light glows from the window just behind them… but the question is, are they ignoring it? Or is it possible that they just can’t see it at the moment?
The blizzard like conditions represented in this card speak to me of a need to look within for help rather than searching outside yourself. If you simply can’t see the help available to you due to elements beyond your control, perhaps it’s time to do a little soul searching on how you can help yourself.
I need to get my taxes prepared and done. I can’t take everything to the accountant until I do my part of things first.
DECK USED: MARUCO ANIMAL TAROT
#TarotForGrowthMay Challenge Prompt
Question: What obstacle have I overcome that deserves to be highlighted?
Reading Summary: Finding a way to move forward and on to a better place in my life (Six of Swords) after changes came about (Death) that created a lack of security and feelings of instability (King of Pentacles Rx).
Take Away: This is about moving out of my parents home. When I first emancipated from my parents home, the support system that I had used to get legal independence at such an early age fell through and I spent some time homeless and even more time living in a state of financial uncertainty that made everything I valued feel constantly at risk… including my life. I overcame that obstacle. I finished school and put myself (almost) all the way through uni. I worked hard and signed a mortgage and found a level of financial security and stability in my home. This is a monumental feat that I really don’t give myself all that much credit for most of the time.
DECK USED: TAROT OF THE 78 DOORS
#DiscordTarotholicsMay2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What am I ignoring that needs to be dealt with?
Reading Summary: I need to take control (King of Coins) and get my responsibilities balanced and organized (Ace of Coins under Two of Coins) so that I can better prepare for the continued ups and downs this year has in store for me (Wheel of Fortune).
Take Away: My lack of stability and balance in my responsibilities is forcing me to miss out on positive opportunities. It’s time to get my shit together and get done what needs done so the bit of extra space the cards have been telling me to make on my plate can be created. The Wheel of Fortune is my card for the year, and its presence here is both a representation of the ups and downs that have passed and are still before me… as well as the year as a whole.
DECK USED: MYSTIC MANGA TAROT