Today’s meditation was ten minutes long, and was focused upon worrying and how it can so often be a useless endeavor. I see worry spiral out of control all the time. Somehow, I seem to attract people that have a worrier’s mind. They pick up a worry like it’s a tiny little seed, and in their mind it takes root and grows like an invasive species until it fills up every nook and cranny of their minds.
This type of worry isn’t helpful, although some of those “what ifs” can come in helpful in preparing for the unknown. But what it really does is raise anxiety and work the person up to the point that they can’t sleep and can’t get their mind onto anything else.
I have to admit, though… my own habit of ignoring issues is also not good. The key is to find a happy medium.
Today’s draw is a double without a jumper, which means that both cards came out together as one. The cards in today’s draw are the Five of Wands and the Six of Wands (and, yes, this deck is very, very thoroughly shuffled).
What I see here in the cards is that sometimes you have to surrender to the chaos. I don’t really do “chaos” all that well. Change? Sure… it’s difficult but I’m okay with riding it out. Chaos, on the other hand…. I do not ride out very well. It causes a lot of stress and anxiety and is just all around unpleasant.
BUT… it happens. It may actually even be necessary for human development and progress. I just need to remember that when it comes calling, not to fight so hard against it. It’s natural… it’s temporary… and it’ll be okay.
DECK USED: TAROT OF THE HIDDEN REALM
#TarotForGrowthFebruary Challenge Prompt
Question: What is my relationship with my work?
Reading Summary: When I look at this spread, I see an undercurrent of the depths of the sea within the cards on either side, and the lifting up and surfacing of the center cards as being on a layer above. Lower layer is cold, hard sea…. upper layer (center cards) is the rising to the surface and the light.
In juggling responsibilities (Two of Pentacles) and that inner spark of new inspirations (Ace of Wands), I am working on rising above and letting go (Eight of Cups) of what isn’t working and is holding me back from my aspirations (Ten of Pentacles Rx).
DECK USED: ORIENS TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What is one of my least positive qualities?
Reading Summary: I’m a bastard about telling myself that I’m not doing well enough and or not contributing enough. These cards are in reference to my self-judgement (Judgement) of my performance and abilities (Knight of Swords), and my inability to ever accept that I’m doing enough (Four of Pentacles).
Take Away: Accurate. I’m actively working on being more accepting of myself and the products of my skills and abilities, and yet.. I am very much my own worst critic. The cards are calling me out on this specifically in relation to my work and the product of my work.
DECK USED: BRITT’S THIRD EYE TAROT
Owl and Bones February Two Card Challenge
Question: Elevate this / Calm the fuck down here
Elevate This : This card speaks of playing to my strengths concerning helping others. This is something that brings me a lot of enjoyment and a great deal of pleasure. I like helping others find what’s right for them, and helping them find their path. This card speaks to that ability, and my enjoyment of it.
Calm the fuck down here : Ease up on myself concerning my accomplishments. The cards have told me this a lot lately, but I need to accept that I don’t have to do everything at once, and nothing requires being done right this instant. It’s okay to take my time and take things slow.