Today’s meditation was just over twelve minutes long, and was not a guided meditation. Instead, I used the time as an opportunity to center and calm from the burst of anxiety I woke up with first thing this morning.
The meditation involved some breath counting exercises, and a body scan that went from head to toes and then slowly back up again. It was relaxing, and actually did help a bit in getting that tight anxiety knot in my gut to ease up some.
The appearance of The Magician in today’s draw is as a cheerleader. The Magician has appeared to essentially tell me “You’ve got this”.
After my exploits at mother’s club yesterday, I woke up today feeling a bit awkward and out of sorts. Sort of like a hammer might be about to drop at any moment. The Magician’s appearance is a reminder that IF a hammer drops (or even if it doesn’t and it’s just me having a bit of a tweak at what I did in humiliating my mother) that I have everything I need to deal with any issues that arise as a result.
DECK USED: PRISMA VISIONS TAROT
#TarotForGrowthFebruary Challenge Prompt
Question: What is my relationship with my body?
Reading Summary: I really want to be good to myself (Queen of Pennies) and have lots of ideas on how to do so (Page of hearts), but when it comes to the doing part of the equation, I’m just not following through with the skill and solid dedication that is needed (King of Keys).
Take Away: Essentially, the cards are saying I’m “all talk and no action” when it comes to the self care of my body. And they aren’t wrong. A lot of my self care focus rests not on my body (other than the need for rest), but on my emotional and mental well-being instead.
DECK USED: THE BINDING OF ISAAC TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What skill in my tarot practice needs improvement?
Reading Summary: Providing a sense of stability and uplifting messages (Four of Wands) in times of grief and loss (Three of Wands and Five of Coins). There is also a modicum of conflict in these types of readings where I am concerned (Five of Wands).
Take Away: Even before I was mute, I didn’t do too great with grief readings. My delivery is a bit too blunt at a time when most people need a gentler approach. The conflict in these cards has to do with me avoiding mediumship in readings. If the reading from last fall is any indication, there’s clearly a latent ability here that I have been actively avoiding.
DECK USED: GAY TAROT
Owl and Bones February Two Card Challenge
Question: Morning message / Nighttime reflection
Interpretation: It’s not surprising at all that I would receive the same card for this reading as I got for my morning COTD. The Magician’s message is that “You’ve got this” and the reiteration of the message means that there is more. The second appearance references not just my trepidation concerning yesterday’s escapades, but also today’s game of “catch up” as I try to get orders ready to go out tomorrow after having spent some time out of town. The nighttime reflection message has to deal with
The appearance of the Devil card as the nighttime reflection has to do with the amount of distraction that I allowed into my day. I couldn’t really afford any distractions at all, but I did. As a result, I ended up more behind than I’d like and needing to carry some of my work for tomorrow’s shipments over into the morning, which will in turn set me behind in my trip to the post office, and cause me to be later in getting home from that trip. Repercussions and consequences from the bit of distraction I allowed myself earlier in the day.