Avoiding Overload

Today’s meditation has not yet happened yet, as I thought I was getting up early to make sure everything was ready for the helper to arrive this morning.  Then, she didn’t arrive, so I ended up lying down for a couple more hours of sleep rather than staying up.   I will do the meditation before bed tonight, and have plans for it to be a self-directed visit to the cabin in the woods.

Three of Wands - Tarot of the Little Prince Today’s draw is the Three of Wands, which is a representation of

What I see in this card today is the dangers of becoming too  self-reliant.  The young man has a fire going on a windy day, and he is distracted by other tasks and not paying close attention to the potential danger of the fire’s sparks being set loose through the carry of the air.

It is yet another reminder that I need to be sure I’m asking for help at the moment.  And it’s a good one, because I nearly told my helper to forget about coming this week.  After standing me up for two days in a row, she says she’s coming tomorrow and I honestly wanted to turn around and say no.    But I DO need the help… so I’m going to let her come.

I’m definitely going to be looking for a new helper come the new year tho.  I don’t mind her flaking out now and then through most of the year, but I made it very clear that this time of year is the major focus of why I hired a helper in the first place.  The rest of the year her help is appreciated… but at this time of year it’s needed.  If she can’t hold up to that part of things, I need someone that can.


Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember

Question: How can I honor that discovery? (Building off yesterday’s read.)

Herbal Healing Tarot

Reading Summary: Take this new perspective (Ace of Swords) and open myself up to it (Two of Cups), because trying to charge ahead and do everything myself (Knight of Wands) is a recipe for disaster (Five of Pentacles).

Take Away:  Usually, this lesson is about work and pushing myself too hard.  In this case, it is a very similar lesson, but it has to do with allowing others in to be a support system to my emotional health.  This defense mechanism doesn’t really serve my well being, and if I want to honor this realization about myself, I need to consciously take steps to avoid allowing that defense mechanism to take control.



One thought on “Avoiding Overload

  1. I don’t blame you at all for wanting to find someone new after the Christmas rush is over. If she can’t be dependable in the times that you -need- her, then she’s not the right person for the job. You are extremely flexible about her hours the rest of the year but if she can’t even show up now, when you have made it very clear that it’s imperative, then you really need to find someone else who can do the job.

    I also don’t blame you for not firing her yet, no matter how much you might want to. Because you do need the help and you might as well get whatever you can out of her while it lasts. If it happens. Just don’t put off other things to wait around for her, just in case she flakes again.

    As for reaching out when you need emotional support, please do baby. I don’t want you falling into a depression or trying to handle the emotional overload by yourself when I’m right here and more than happy to help you through it all as much as I possibly can. I love you, man. I’m always here for you. Always.

    Just make sure that you’re open with me about things, yeah? I can’t help if I don’t know what’s going on.


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