Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and focused on finding a pathway to peace in the middle of chaos. Honestly, I’m writing this about fourteen hours later and I can’t remember a damn thing about what was said in the guided meditation, but I do know that my stress level felt better after those ten minutes than it did before.
I am the Knight of Wands right now, but you can only charge full speed ahead for so long before you need to breathe, eat, drink, ground, and center.
Although I know I need these things, it feels like it’s wasting time. I feel like I am wasting time now, just writing this out. But, I also know that I need this time. I need to step away and take a breath now and then. I need to give myself space, no matter how swamped I am and how desperately I’m trying to catch up.
DECK USED: TAROT OF THE LITTLE PRINCE
Bonus Reading – #TarotForGrowthDecember
Question: What challenge did I overcome that I deserve to be proud of?
Reading Summary: PTSD (Eight of Swords), and the emotions that were spawned (Ace of Cups) by that and by the experiences with my ex and his influences. Despite all of that, I continue to reach out to others, share my feelings and seek out others and include them as a part of my life (Three of Cups).
Take Away: Rape is ugly. Home invasions are ugly. Dying on my kitchen floor was ugly. The scars left behind are ugly. All of these things are ugly. Any of these things on their own could have been devastating to my life as a whole. And yet, I survived them all and more, and I am stronger from them. Not only did I survive, but I did not allow them to stop me from caring… from loving… or from reaching out to others and allowing people into my life.
DECK USED: Ancestral Path Tarot