Today’s meditation is currently as yet to be done. I tried to lie down and do it earlier this morning, but I couldn’t manage to get myself to settle. Rather than trying to force it and make myself miserable, I decided to give it a try later on, which has turned into giving it a try at bed time.
Today’s draw is the Knight of Pentacles, which is the most solid and down to earth of all the knights. The Knight of Pentacles is about responsibility and getting things done, which is honestly a bit in contrast to how I’m feeling these days.
I am making a concerted effort to slow down and take things a step at a time instead of plowing into everything headlong and submerging in it until I either sink or swim… and I always fucking swim. But what I’ve found is that in taking my time and not giving myself that stress to go go go? I feel like I’m slacking.
The appearance of the Knight of Pentacles is a reminder that it’s not slacking. It’s self care. It’s okay to take your time because you are progressing, just at a slower rate than you’re used to.
DECK USED: TAROT OF THE HIDDEN REALM
#TarotForGrowthFebruary Challenge Prompt
Question: What is my relationship with money?
Reading Summary: Look at that flow of flowers (no, they are not standard through the whole deck). What really stands out to me in this read is the flowers. They go from a few flowers sprouting from the earth in the first card, to abundance in the second card, and then abundance obtained in the third card.
Take Away: As an intuitive hit from the perspective mentioned above, my relationship with money is one of fostering growth and harvesting the rewards of that endeavor.
DECK USED: GUARDIAN TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What do I need to focus on for self-care this full moon?
Reading Summary: My inner conflict is getting the better of me (Five of Wands) and I need to work on centering and grounding myself (Queen of Pentacles) so that I’m not bouncing all over the place (Knight of Wands). Ignoring my emotions (Page of Cups) is a foolish endeavor (The Fool).
Take Away: We are actually talking about this right now in IMs. That is, we’re talking about that sense of shame and conflict I’m feeling concerning the feelings of stagnation and lack of accomplishment involved in taking things slow. The cards (which were drawn this morning) are telling me that I need to not hold this in. Instead I need to confront these feelings and deal with them, something that you help me with.
From our talk: “I think that your fear kinda held you back for so long that you’re unsure of those first steps and feeling like you’re never gonna reach them. You can do this, babe. It’s a lot about organization and you are GOOD at that… this is a first step at that… being organized will make you feel better. More confident and secure.”
You’re right. Maybe the first steps don’t have anything to do with doing things at all, but rather with getting organized.
DECK USED: THE ORIENS TAROT
Owl and Bones February Two Card Challenge
Question: Connect with this / Find inspiration here
Connect With This: Finding direction. Wow. Okay. So the majority of the reads this morning all deal with the same thing, as this read also ties into both the COTD for today as well as the Tarotholics Prompt above. It speaks of needing to find direction and getting organized prior to trying to advance and ending up spinning my wheels.
Find Inspiration Here: This is about realizing that this new, slower way of doing things should be seen as an adventure and not a chore. I should take this new adventure with an open heart, rather than being down on myself when I occasionally stumble during the transition period.