Today’s meditation was skipped. It just didn’t end up happening. I do plan to get back on track though tomorrow. I don’t want to fall back into skipping over and over again.
Today’s draw is the Nine of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of worries, stress, negative inner dialogue, and nightmares as well as the unpleasant results of these issues such anxiety and insomnia.
What I see here in the combination between the Nine of Swords and the affirmation card today is a reminder that “what ifs” and worse case scenario thinking is not healthy. Yes, it can prepare you for things to come and the unexpected. But that doesn’t make it healthy.
The message in today’s cards is to remember to instill a bit more optimism in your thinking. You don’t have to discount the bad that may come, but rather you need to make sure that you also accept that it (whatever “it” may be) has just as much potential to turn out good instead.
DECK USED: TAROT DE MARSEILLE JEAN DODAL AND LESS ANXIETY AFFIRMATION CARDS
Two of Staves – Although you haven’t abandoned your path, you have spent some time in standstill and need to reconnect to the plan and ensure that your coordinates don’t need adjusting.
How can I begin to incorporate that back into my life?
Strength – Everything you need is a part of who you already are. Look inward to your strengths. Connect with your inner moral compass, and what you know is right for you.
Where am I on my path at this time?
The Emperor – You may be large and in charge of your own life, but you also aren’t moving. This pause is necessary to rally your people around you, and learn to appreciate their support and just how much they contribute to your life and your journey.
What should I prepare to harvest at the end of the month?
Five of Cups – There comes a spill… a tumble from grace, just try to salvage what you can instead of wallowing in the negative aspects of the experience.
How do I begin those preparations?
Three of Swords Rx – Work on seeing the up side in bad situations. Optimism is going to be important, and just like intuition or and physical muscle, the more you use it, the stronger it will become and easier it will become to lean on when needed.
DECK USED: SAROS TAROT
Reading Summary: Optimism (Five of Cups… the meaning of the card in this reading is an echo of the previous reading I did for myself above) doesn’t equal blind trust. It means you look at both sides of the coin instead of one in order to achieve a healthier perspective (The positioning of the Fool and the Five of Cups straddling the Lovers card creates healthy choices as the ultimate outcome of balancing two perspectives).
Take Away: As a pessimist, I look at pessimism as a method of preparation. If you’re already expecting the worst, then you can only be pleasantly surprised if things go better than expected… instead of disappointed or butthurt if things go bad.
This has always been my mindset. But, something I’ve struggled with is that pessimism isn’t healthy unless you have a balance. That’s why the saying goes “prepare for the worst, hope for the best”. Without hope? Pessimism is a toxin. Poisonous and corrosive to the spirit.
DECK USED: TAROT DE MARSEILLE JEAN DODAL
I managed to get over 100 orders done and packaged today, with the help of Z and L. Which, in turn, should take a lot of stress and pressure off order day tomorrow as I play catch up from having time off.