Like yesterday’s post, I’m playing a bit of catch up. I can’t remember whether I meditated on the 7th or not. So I’ll leave this empty this time around as I finish up these posts that got started… but never published on the blog.
Today’s draw is the Eight of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of painting oneself into a corner, putting hurdles in your own way, and other self defeating behavior including negative inner dialogue and pity party mentality.
What stands out to me the most strongly in this card’s imagery today is that there is no swords or snakes on the other side of the large tombstone looking rock. The boy and the fox are so focused on the snake and swords that they haven’t looked around to see that there’s another way out of their situation.
And the boy and the fox? They are me. Freaking out and forgetting to look at other options, allowing my worries and fears to narrow my focus. I need to remember to stay calm and take a look around.
DECK USED: TAROT OF THE LITTLE PRINCE
LionHart’s As Above So Below Challenge Prompt
Rising Sign Question: How can I balance the self with those around me, to achieve what I am asked to work on this month?
Reading Summary: Focus on your new emotions (Ace of Water) and not the old feelings of scarcity that so often drive you (Five of Water Rx). You need to be able to go after what you desire and not just what you think you need to do (Messenger of Water atop Ace of Air), and you will once again light the fire of inspiration within you (Ace of Fire).
Take Away: This is about putting more priority on the pleasure of my work and letting go of that iron grip I have on the feelings of responsibility and desperation that I often you use to push me forward. The truth is? I’ve been using those feelings of responsibility and desperation more and more over time, and they are smothering my spark of enthusiasm and inspiration under their weight.
DECK USED: WITCHES WISDOM TAROT
#DiscordTarotolicsNov2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: Wish for the Future / Next Step in Getting There / The Home of My Hope
Wish For The Future – The Moon Rx – Less uncertainty is a great wish for the future. Like most people, I struggle a great deal with insecurities and the illusions they create that make my reality mine and subjective. These insecurities create a feeling of anxiety, and encourage predictive thinking that isn’t rooted in divination but rather is rooted in fear. To be free of the uncertainties that stir up these insecurities would make for a beautiful future.
Next Step in Getting There – The Tower atop Four of Swords Rx – Make sure that you’re not standing back and practicing restraint during the chaos to come. Sometimes, if you step back, you can ride out the chaos in peace. Other times? You have to fight for what you want to keep during those moments. In this case? You have to fight.
The Home of My Hope – The World – I take comfort from, as well as it being the home of my hope concerning, the cyclical pattern of life. The fact that we move through a journey that spirals back upon itself on another higher level again and again as we become better people through each event and trial we work through. It fills me with hope that this cycle moves not just through our lives, but is also the journey of the soul. A journey of betterment through time and experience.
DECK USED: SAVRAN FOREST TAROT
Heal & Transform November Challenge Prompt
Question: What aspect of myself am I ready to shed?
Reading Summary: I’m ready to take control (The Chariot) of my depression caused by my constant disappointment in myself (Three of Swords), and instead live in a place of contentment (Nine of Cups).
Take Away: The cards are long-form telling me that I’m ready to shed some of my shadows that spur on my detrimental inner dialogue and create the potential for that slippery down-slope into depression. This more generalized depression then has the ability to trigger a major depressive episode with far reaching and dangerous effects.
The cards here indicate that shedding these shadows requires determination and control, but that the reward on the other side of having dealt with them and shed them is finding greater contentment in life.
DECK USED: OAK ASH & THORN TAROT
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What is my biggest fear?
Reading Summary: Being overtaken (Five of Swords) by my mother’s qualities and influences (Queen of Wands Rx), and turning my world into shit as a result (Wheel of Fortune Rx)
Take Away: The cards here indicate that my biggest fear is turning into my mother. I have many of her qualities, and this is something I do very much fear. I don’t want to become the cold, calculating, self centered type of person that uses the world and everyone in it as their personal game of chess. I dread the effect that allowing these qualities to take hold within myself would have on my life and those around me.