Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long and was combined with interval timer for my stretches. The topic of this guided meditation was about the small choices we make… in other words, the butterfly effect.
It was about how with each small good choice we make for ourselves in our lives, we foster and encourage goodness and positivity and healthy habits to develop and take root. And how it’s important to encourage this positive growth, as opposed to feeding the bad habits and making bad choices that hold us back.
Today’s draw is the Ten of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of painful endings, the dying off of hard times, and the end of cycles of difficulty and trials. The swords suit is, after all, a story about tragedy and the Ten of Swords is the end of said tragedy before the hero of the story picks themselves back up and brushes themselves off to try again.
I find the imagery in this card to be extremely disorienting today. I’m not sure if it has always made me feel this way, but today? When I look at this card it feels as if the entire world has been turned upside down. And in this chaotic, confusing world the boy curls close the fox that is his companion to protect the fox from being hurt or lost.
The message here is about making sure that you are caring for your heart… your soft squishy insides. When the world falls into chaos, make sure you’re taking care of what’s important to you… including yourself. Kindness and love is needed. It might not conquer all… but it makes everything just a little bit better.
DECK USED: TAROT OF THE LITTLE PRINCE
Nine of Coins – I spend so much time focusing on where I’m going and what I need to do that I’ve forgotten to take time to enjoy the present and what I have in the now. Gideon reminded me earlier today of this. I was sad about having lost my “easy”… that easy going nature I’d had when I was younger siphoned away over time as I started my own businesses and responsibilities piled on my shoulders.
He reminded me that yes, that “easy” was nice, but it was also a time in my life where I was struggling just to feed myself. In the same way as looking back on what I miss, I often train my focus forward on where I want to go… but in truth? I need to spend more of my focus on the now, and just how good I have it these days.
What’s been holding me back from seeing my blessings clearly?
Six of Swords Rx – My determination to move forward and claim more of what I want out of life, to achieve more and succeed. To stake my claim on the future. This determination has made it difficult to ease up and enjoy the present to its fullest.
How can I better express my gratitude in the future?
Knight of Cups – Instead of focusing so hard on responsibilities and goals, seek out the things that bring me joy and satisfaction and go after them instead. Seek the things that foster a bit of pleasure in the present instead of constantly striving for more out of the future.
What do I need to acknowledge gratitude for in my relationships?
Four of Swords – I am so grateful that those in my life understand my need for alone time and encourage that. It’s something that I don’t express a lot of gratitude for, but having had some experience in the past few years with some truly extroverted people that need a good deal of social contact? I have come to realize that the friends and loved ones I have are very unique in that they are supportive of my need for alone time. I didn’t realize how rare this was until… well, just now when thinking about it.
What do I need to acknowledge gratitude for in my finances?
Five of Cups – This is an echo of the response in my first question of this spread. It’s about realizing how good I have it now, and feeling gratitude for the present and all that I have in this present moment. I need to stop telling myself that I’m not doing enough… that it’s not enough… that I’m not enough.
What do I need to acknowledge gratitude for in my work life?
King of Cups – I am able to do what truly nourishes my soul. Sometimes I might feel worn down and tired, and I might not enjoy it as much as I could… or should. But, the fact remains, I’m doing what I love. I’m doing what I enjoy. And, through my work, I share my pleasure and enjoyment, my emotions and my hopes and the energy of my positive emotions with others with every single piece that I ship out.