Today’s meditation was just over fifteen minutes long, and was a healing light meditation that I used to focus on my wrist injury. It was very relaxing, despite the fact that the guide’s voice wasn’t the best.
This message has to do with vulnerability and inner struggle, and after the evening that I’ve had, I definitely understand where it’s coming from. The message is that there are going to be times when you’re feeling vulnerable in a very not-pleasant way. Between the shadow reading I received today and the phone call from my mother, my unpleasant vulnerability is at a high, and as the Nine of Bats indicates, it has definitely caused me some distress.
What I also see in these cards though is the shining sun on the bed and comforting concern of the cat in the Nine of Bats… and the brightly shining star combined with the growth of new green in the Star card. To me, these factors speak of comfort and hope.
What this means is that yes… it’s been a hard day. YES, the last few hours have sucked. But I have right before me the gifts in my life that will help me through it and allow me to grow from the experience rather than letting it drag me down.
Deck Used: Halloween Tarot
Another #TarotForGrowthOctober prompt.
Question: What accomplishment of mine should I give myself more recognition for?
Reading Summary: The work that I’ve been doing in an effort to better balance my spirituality (The High Priestess), my newly uncovered level of emotions (Page of Cups), and my responsibilities (King of Pentacles).
Take Away: This has been a real struggle for me of late and a lot of the time I feel adrift in uncertain waters. For a while, I was starting to think that I’d dipped my toe in too deep of a pond with the emotion digging, but what I really think is that this new level is just new and makes me feel uncertain. Balancing that uncertainty with the familiarity of my spirituality and the rigid demand of responsibility has been difficult and… honestly? I always feel like I’m failing when in truth? I’m probably not.