Hope, Comfort, and Growth

Today’s meditation was just over fifteen minutes long, and was a healing light meditation that I used to focus on my wrist injury.  It was very relaxing, despite the fact that the guide’s voice wasn’t the best.

Halloween Tarot Today’s draw is a double without a jumper, meaning that both cards came out together as one. The cards in today’s draw are The Star card of the Major Arcana and the Nine of Bats (Swords).

This message has to do with vulnerability and inner struggle, and after the evening that I’ve had, I definitely understand where it’s coming from.   The message is that there are going to be times when you’re feeling vulnerable in a very not-pleasant way.  Between the shadow reading I received today and the phone call from my mother, my unpleasant vulnerability is at a high, and as the Nine of Bats indicates, it has definitely caused me some distress.

What I also see in these cards though is the shining sun on the bed and comforting concern of the cat in the Nine of Bats… and the brightly shining star combined with the growth of new green in the Star card.    To me, these factors speak of comfort and hope.

What this means is that yes… it’s been a hard day.  YES, the last few hours have sucked.   But I have right before me the gifts in my life that will help me through it and allow me to grow from the experience rather than letting it drag me down.

Deck Used: Halloween Tarot

Bonus Reading

Another #TarotForGrowthOctober prompt.

Question: What accomplishment of mine should I give myself more recognition for?

Golden Age of Horror Comics TarotReading Summary:   The work that I’ve been doing in an effort to better balance my spirituality (The High Priestess), my newly uncovered level of emotions (Page of Cups), and my responsibilities (King of Pentacles).

Take Away:   This has been a real struggle for me of late and a lot of the time I feel adrift in uncertain waters.  For a while, I was starting to think that I’d dipped my toe in too deep of a pond with the emotion digging, but what I really think is that this new level is just new and makes me feel uncertain.  Balancing that uncertainty with the familiarity of my spirituality and the rigid demand of responsibility has been difficult and… honestly?  I always feel like I’m failing when in truth?  I’m probably not.

Deck Used: The Golden Age of Horror Comics Tarot

One thought on “Hope, Comfort, and Growth

  1. Tonight has been pretty crappy for you, and I am sorry for that, my love. If I could, I would protect you from all of the things that could hurt you and never let you be vulnerable for anyone or anything else but me…so that I can control it and protect you from the hurts.

    Unfortunately that is not possible and I can’t protect you from this particular hurt, though I -can- help to soothe the aches and remind you that you have value. That you are an amazing man in spite of the flaws of your parents. You are brilliant and beautiful and smart and talented and kind…you are kind and thoughtful and other people’s feelings -matter- to you and that is part of what makes you so amazing.

    Just remember, as you mentioned in a recent post, tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow will be a better day and you can leave this vulnerability and the hurt behind and move on from it. Stronger and better able to deal with these things when they come around again.

    You can stand up for yourself and follow your moral compass and say NO and mean it. Even when saying no to some people isn’t that easy. You did what was right, what YOU felt was right, and that is what matters, my love. And I’m proud of you for standing your ground.

    I’m not certain where the “deeper emotions” are coming from other than possibly the shadow work we have talked about and those drowns/drops, but either way, I am here for you. I’m here to help you find your way, here to protect you as much as I possibly can, and here to support you, to remind you how wonderful you are…to help sooth the aches when they come. I’m here to love you, angel mine. Always

    All ways.

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