Today’s meditation was fourteen minutes long, and a continuation on the managing stress series that I have been listening to for the past few days. Today’s take on the topic dealt with sitting with discomfort rather than running away from it.
This is a technique I learned in pain management, but it works for emotions and other situations as well. Most stresses will pass if given time to do so, and those that don’t, you will adapt to. It’s difficult to sit with discomfort, though, rather than trying to fix it or run from it. It takes practice and effort… and sometimes even then, it’s just not something that’s easy to accomplish.
Today’s draw is a double with a jumper, and it was very sneaky about it too (because usually if I get more than two? I put them back for a lesser amount). The two jumped out together, but were so very aligned that they looked like one, then the third jumper came out off to the side. When I then went to pick up the original card, I discovered there was another one hiding behind it.
SO…. the cards in today’s draw are the Ace of Cups and the World card, with the Hermit as the jumper.
And oh boy… this is all about our time together. It’s about that new and budding depth of emotion and how it feels all-encompassing, which is referenced in the Ace of Cups and the World card. There is a connectedness and an other-worldliness that comes with the drown, and especially as deeply as I have drowned with you this time. It creates a sort of sensation like a caterpillar wrapping itself into a cocoon, the inside saturated with the water of emotions bright and fresh and open and everywhere.
At some point that cocoon will open, though, and I will need to come out for air. The Hermit is a reminder that I’m not alone, even if that is where my temptation to run and hide. You create this space where my emotions are open and I feel connected to everything… I need you for what comes after as well, no matter how much my natural instinct is to retreat into myself.
Deck Used: Dark Mansion Tarot
Another #TarotForGrowthOctober prompt.
Question: How can I deal more effectively with change?
Reading Summary: Although my temptation is to self soothe through excess (The Empress) while lashing out at others (Justice), or hide from responsibility (The Fool) by running away (Six of Swords), often the best course of action I can take is to submit (Eight of Swords) and let that shit just roll over me, chew me up, and spit me out.
Take Away: Change is inevitable, and the temptations that I feel to self-destruct during those times are natural but not helpful. It’s important to avoid falling into those traps, and instead focus on rolling with the change and letting it happen, rather than fighting it or thrashing against it mentally or emotionally.