Sometimes You Have to Just Take a Breath

Today’s meditation was ten minutes long, and focused on being persistent in your meditation practice, because it is the journey  that makes the practice good (and good for you), not the destination.

That is to say that there is no ‘end goal’ to meditation.   It is, by definition, a practice.  Something you practice.  There are no experts, there is no perfection.

Each day is a new day and another step on the path.  If you make the time to do it… if you sit down and do it, then that’s all that is needed to succeed in the day’s meditation.  It’s not an activity of rating your performance, but instead an activity where you get an “A” for participation… end of story.

Nine of Pumpkins Today’s draw is the Nine of Pumpkins (Pentacles) which is a representation of fruition and fulfillment, culmination and consequences in the area of finances, resources, manifestation, and the physical world.

This is an abundance card, absolutely.  But honestly?  I’ve not been feeling all that abundant today.   I’ve felt stressed and irked and a bit overwhelmed by the bullshit that I talked to you about in chat just briefly earlier concerning that whole seller harassment issue.

So yeah.

The message, though, is in the resting of the woman’s hand upon the pumpkin.  I really wanted to spend some time in nature today, but travel and specifically traffic just really didn’t allow for the extra time needed to do that.

So maybe what the card is trying to tell me is that everything is going to be alright, yeah?  Because I sure as hell don’t feel like things are falling together, or particularly abundant.    Honestly?  I’ve waffled between feeling sickly and feeling irked for most of the day, and at the moment I feel like crying like a two year old and hiding my head under a pillow.

UGH… damnit!   Right.

Positive message in the Nine of Pumpkins.  *Taking a deep breath.*

The positive message in today’s draw is that even when feeling overwhelmed and out of sorts, there are always things to be grateful for.   So perhaps what I need is to do a bit of gratitude practice.

Deck Used: Halloween Tarot

Bonus Reading

Another #TarotForGrowthOctober prompt again today.  As mentioned before, I might try to do the bonus reading every day (or near to it) for this month.

Question: Where may I benefit from more structure?

Bonus Tarot ReadingReading Summary: Fumbling in the dark (The Moon) with concerns to emotional stability (Four of Cups).  Collaborating with others (Three of Pentacles). Arriving at the end of the line concerning thought and ambition (King of Wands and King of Swords).

Take Away:   I’m a bit topsy-turvy today when it comes to my emotions, so I’m not surprised that the Moon came up in relation to emotional stability.  With the shift we just did between top space and bottom, this shift and that sensation of being lost in the dark is something that comes with the territory.

With the Kings on the right, I feel it’s speaking of being at the end of a journey and needing to move on to the next steps.  Ambition and ideas are all well and good, but they can only go so far until you move into manifestation.

Between these two concepts is the collaboration card, the Three of Pentacles.   This indicates to me that both situations require collaboration in order to find that stability and structure needed to move forward, both emotionally, as well as with ideas and ambitions that have been brewing for a while in the back of my mind.

Deck Used: Anne Stoke’s Gothic Tarot