Today’s meditation was just over eleven minutes long, and was the fourth installment of the Foundations III series on the Balance app. This meditation was almost identical to the last in that it was a body scan (Yoga Nidra) practice with a guide moving you through the different parts of the body. In fact, I didn’t really detect any difference between yesterday’s and today’s.
Today’s draw is the As di Denari (Ace of Pentacles), which is traditionally a representation of the seed of new beginnings in the area of one’s finances, resources, home, health, and manifestations. This often translates into themes that have to do with new opportunities and potential for new growth in those areas.
I’m sure I’m not alone in having so many pots that I really want to put in the fire that sometimes even just putting -one- of them in the fire feels like too much.
With October starting to creep up and the holiday rush close behind it, there’s so much to do to get ready, and yet… all I feel is tired. Exhausted, really. I don’t want to do any of it, and some days like today? I don’t feel like I have the energy for any of it either.
Today’s cards are a reminder that no matter how many things you have piled up to get started on? It’s okay to take a breath and just do what you can… and not be down on yourself about not doing more.
DECK USED: TAROT OF THE MASTER AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS
BekahMurphysMagic’s #IntuitiveHealingTarotChallenge Prompt
Questions for September 24th and 25th
When I was young, and my father was cruel to the point that I needed to retreat and curl up in a ball somewhere and cry, I always felt the ache of the hiraeth.
That little boy said to himself again and again “I want to go home”, “I want to go home”… even when I was at home in my room or in the woods outside our house. Until today, I never realized that there was a word for this unbearable ache of longing for that “home” that doesn’t exist in reality, but that you long for anyway.
Closing myself off and pulling myself inward again and again in my youth ended up shutting down my ability to hope, and it made me the pessimist that I am today. That is where healing is needed.
What wisdom do I need to gain in order to heal the remnants of this wound?
Wolf and King of Wands
More trust in yourself and your inner knowing, less attention paid to the extraneous noise and nonsense that tries to distract you from your passions and purpose. Trust yourself more, trust your judgement and moral compass. Doubts and second guessing is a waste of time and perpetuates the damage done all those years ago.
Where do I need to gain clarity in order to heal the remnants of this wound?
Warrior and Ten of Wands
It is through our struggles and determination that we grow. This understanding needs to be applied to these past wounds. This is no different than a car accident or home invasion, both of which you have experienced. You either crumble or grow stronger.
DECK USED: THE ARCHEO PERSONAL ARCHETYPE CARDS AND E D JASBECK’S NON-BINARY TAROT
Wood + Stone atop Light, Caval di Bastone – Get your ass out in nature as much as possible. This is where you really shine. There was a time when I used to provide guided hikes in the national rainforests, and a time in my life when when I wanted to be a forest ranger.
I pursued a different path for my career, and I stopped doing the guided hikes over a decade ago. But just because I no longer pursue income in these areas doesn’t mean I need the time in the forests any less. In fact, perhaps I need it even more.
What would it be like to only worry for 10 minutes a day?
History atop Light, II di Spade – Your history has proven to you again and again that this is not possible. Your mind does not work this way. You have a logical mind that requires a full array of information before you can make decisions and choose a course of action. Ten minutes a day is not enough time to gather up all the information needed.
DECK USED: APESOS NEW TAROT AND TAROT OF THE MASTER
I put a small handful of spinach in my smoothie this morning. I couldn’t even taste it was in there so I think this could be a good way to get a little extra veggies in now and then.