Today’s meditation was approximately thirteen minutes long, and was the 9th installment of the Foundations II series on the Balance app. The meditation primarily dealt with going deeper into labeling techniques during meditation (namely with the thinking and feeling labels), as well as focusing on the breath.
In the imagery for today’s tarot card, I don’t see wands in the imagery so much as I see shooting stars… or perhaps more accurately, a meteor shower.
Sometimes when we’re working on something, it can feel like nothing we do is enough. Negative narrative snowballs like piercing and painful spears, showering down on you like a meteor shower from above.
The Thera-Pets card for today tells us to remember that just because we’re being hard on ourselves during these moments doesn’t mean it will improve our performance… or do anything but tear you down in the moment.
Better to be patient with yourself and just do what you can. As the card says… the rest will fall into place. And by not abusing yourself with expectations beyond your comfort zone. You’ll be happier in the end, and it’s far less stressful that way.
DECK USED: NOISY MUSEUM TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS
La Magicienne and King of Pentacles – Ground yourself in the knowledge of what you’ve done, and what you’re capable of. Acknowledge your manifestation powers, as well as your connection with the earth.
How can I speak my mind?
Dissimulation Agressive and Justice – Be careful to deliver unpleasant messages with kindness, but don’t hold back and not deliver them at all. Sometimes people need to hear the bad shit, even if it hurts… and sometimes, they need to hear it from you specifically.
What makes me bulletproof?
Le Porteur de Chance and Ten of Pentacles – You are adaptable, and because you keep your eye on the goals that you want to achieve, as things come up that would get in your way you’re able to adapt in a way that moves you towards these goals instead of holding you back. This often looks like luck, but is actually a skill.
DECK USED: TERRA INTUITIONS ONIRIQUES AND CURSED AUGURIES TAROT
Reading Summary: Keep in mind that most of your bad habits, self-destructive tendencies, and addictions (The Devil) are a way of self-soothing and self-medicating (Queen of Water). They are distractions (Ace of Fire Rx).
Take Away: Maybe it’s time to examine just what I’m avoiding. What am I self-medicating and self-soothing? Why do I need these things and what is causing me to need them to the point that they become unhealthy?
This might be something I need to unpack after the holiday season, as it definitely doesn’t sound like an easy fix but more of a lengthy exploration and potential shadow work. With the holiday rush coming, it would be a bad idea to start these new explorations right now, but it might not be a bad idea to at least start mulling these questions over.
DECK USED: NOISY MUSEUM TAROT
Time playing Enu with Gid is always a pick me up. The character is always so cheerful and can have a positive influence on my own mood, as long as I can slip into his skin and play him successfully.